Helium

Let's celebrate tonight, let's throw a party
Look up at the sky and the night is starry
Let's go to my favorite place
An intimate crowd, a tight knit space
No one can throw it down in the way that we do
But now it doesn't feel the way it used to
Ten's a party but then nine leave
And the quiet will never let me be

Drinking alone
Smoking alone
Getting high alone
I'm so alone

Three days later and I'm not sober
Four years later, I don't feel that I'm older
I sway to the beat of my own drum
These balloons have lost their helium
The party's long gone, but I'm still drinking
Just trying to ignore that I'm still sinking
I try to laugh and do a dance
Dance like I still stand a chance

I celebrate alone, not much of a party
Alone in a room, my ceiling isn't starry
I'm here in my least favorite place
My mind is so far out in space
No one self destructs in the way that I do
Things aren't looking up the way they used to
The world's scary now, I want to leave
And the quiet will never leave me be

Drinking alone
Smoking alone
Getting high alone
I'm so damn alone

Two weeks later and I'm not sober
Four years later, I don't feel that I'm older
I sway to the beat of my own drum
These balloons have lost their helium
The party's long gone but I'm still drinking
Just trying to ignore that I'm still sinking
I try to laugh and do a dance
Dance like I still stand a chance

Drink myself to death
So high there's nothing left of me
Drink myself to death
There's nothing left of me

Seven months later, I wanna get sober
Maybe finally I wanna get older
Still sway to the beat of my own drum
Everyone come back, bring the helium
The party just started and I'm not drinking
Still a little worried that I'm still sinking
I laugh so hard while I do my dance
Maybe now I stand a chance