Feels

Sorry if I gave the true feel that I'm asking for it

Never thought that I could hold reaction
& just laugh about it

When it comes to love I close distance
Gotta Capricorn it
All I've ever been to anyones a baggage
Carry on

Now you see the true meaning
Of what God offers

Never break the floor on which I stand
That's on grandma

Made alotta changes back than
That have now fallen

So tell me why the arm & leg to be happy for me

Sad part is I respected all you
& I expected all the same in every fallen moment

They never did so I cutt em off
& after thought them
Never made it more than what it was
Back to ashing on them

& ever thought was then reciprocated
Cause he's abusive
He's a liar he's manipulative

He's full of pain so his daughters
How's he going to raise them?
But tell me how you dial it down in my situation

They throwing shade upon my name but don't forget the grave &

Everything that goes inside
The frame of the underrated
This is why I held a grudge in the years I faded

Looking forward stepping out with police arrangements

& now I've failed the 2 things
I said I'd keep from hatred
The only reason that I breathe
The reason I can make it

I lost the greatest on the way
A tear drop to pavement

But you'll never understand
it from above the graveyard... YEA

So I let the pain be it's sacred

& all the feels they dismissed
are now elevated
Got me thinking back to 07's Levitation

I barely made it back than
For real my heart is vacant

An empathetic doing Gods work
I make emends with
Everybody that had hurt me sorry for the barrier

Maybe I should marry Karma
Cause my wrong is natured
Or maybe I should step forward
& return the finger I don't know. maybe

Sorry if I gave the true feels that
I've mastered all it
All I've ever had is speculation that's been shattered from them

Never got to say goodbye in any form
An after problem

Whether it was beef or the Karma
Tell me why is it common

I never understood the wall upon him
Or how adoption in itself is my inner problem

Hand to God alotta times
I contemplated on it
It wasnt hard for paps
AHHH why I got to be honest

Thoughts be lay awayed 90's Walmart
I never thought he'd leave
Until I seen the Valium on him

Learn to watch it from the pedestal & how to prop it

This s haunt me
Now regret is now my formal option

& to the ones who still love me
F I need a minute
Thinking about my story
Why I can't be egotistic?

Why I never get my peace why
I always miss it
Cause even in the worst of it
I still love the critic's

Something about overcoming
What the others didn't

Something about the differential
& a need to listen

Hardest out but even then
Respects never given
Until I go & just Kaczynski
Who they think are illest

There is not another on my level
double middle finger
So please keep me locked away
in a different freezer

I made it this far I never thought
Of playing victim & as much as
I appreciated how you get it?

Sober still & that's a living
Very few admit to

Different view same
Outlook got me so consistent