Delusional Bill

Ever since I punched a kid over crack he bought for complaining it's not enough
I knew I had something inside if I don't tame that I might end up dying young

That voice in my mind that tells me I'm off probation
So If I catch a new charge it won't be that bad
I'll be out the next night when my girl picks me up in my car with a blunt

I made up my mind I'm not afraid of my lonely apartment after dark
I realized I'm the only thing that haunts it lm far gone as they come

All day long we used to be on different runs
Taking planes paying doctors in Florida
I had so many different plugs
But by far Rite Aid pharmacist on Penn Avenue was my favorite one

If they make my statue it's hopefully size 11 vans
Add a couple of inches for the cap on my 6'1 figure
And my beard out of bronze for the cold winter months

All the painful shit I made it from is self inflicted but now I think I'm done
It took years of hard work just to say I love me but really nobody gives a fuck
So just keep to yourself and whatever you do keep your shoes on top your principles
There's no love in the city the sound of burning medicine sizzles and crackles like kindle
Balance heaven and hell inside of my head like a rope between two brindle pit bulls
But I still keep my mood like a hit of indica after flipping over the cool side of the pillow

Had a psychiatrist as a kid I've been popping pills since I was little
When I was 12 I remember being on so much adderall
I cleaned my bike for hours riding at 5am with my headphones on
Back when I went to shaker heights middle school

Got F's and D's on my report card
But It'll be a cold day in hell before you take me for a fool
I just never gave a fuck about what most teachers taught at all

I'm from such a dark in place in the mind most people don't make it out that far
You'll get Found with foam around the mouth a needle in your arm and your pupils fogged

It's a sickness living in this drug epidemic
Lucky we're even still standing at all