All Of Me

I don't what am supposed to be thinking right now
I know that I gave you my love, my trust, it wasn't enough
I gave you all of me and that was my biggest vulnerability
Thinking having a relationship could be a reality
Something often fantasied about, it was never going to happen
You thought I was selfish, all about myself
Just wanted you to see through me
See my poor health, see my ambition to make my own wealth
But I was ignored left on a shelf
Hoping to have a home in a lucky women's heart
I say she's lucky because I know am special but I hate myself
Can't look at myself no more
Feel like I'm such a bad person
Feel so insecure
No affection no more
Again my heart is sore
I see the reflection of a pain that am always left feeling
The familiar pain to same as feeling though am hated
This then makes me feel bitter and hatred
This then makes me feel bitter and hatred

I wanna love
I wanna live
But it just keeps passing me by that's why I wrote all those letters
Prayed that I could somehow die
I Didn't want to see another day
But am still here
And I don't know why

I gave you all of me
Yeah yeah
All of me

Because after that night I knew for sure
There's no definitive way to say it other than the balls in your court
I was on my own again
I couldn't stop overthinking
Reminiscing hoping things were different
But now I see why things are the way they were
But why did I have hurt to see it this way
Now we're both a million miles away
Leading different lives
No contact with each other only at designated times
Because of our son
But if he wasn't here
Your contact with me would none
You don't think that maybe I don't miss you
But the truth is I did
I missed everybody that I've been close to
I feel although I've been cheated out of a chance at having people close to me
Because of the things that happened to me
You was everything to me and so was my family
It tore me down to the ground when you left
But then to find out about my family after that threw me out
This then made me feel bitter and hatred
It made me feel bitter and hatred

I wanna love
I wanna live
But it just keeps passing me by
That's why I wrote all those letters and prayed that I could somehow die
I Didn't want to see another day
But am still here
And I don't know why

I gave you all of me
Yeah yeah
All of me

Every song I write has a meaning
It's my life in lyrics
And this story don't end so bad
Coz I know that if it wasn't for all that
I wouldn't be the person I am today
I wouldn't have a son or the partner I have now
I wouldn't have found out everything I have
So I guess I am grateful
Coz I never thought I could love again
But now I love somebody more than I love myself
And it give me a reason to live
And it give me a reason to live

I am loved and I have a life
No more suicide letters or praying to die, My life's back on track
Am going to love live everyday, Like it's my last
Because life's too short to worry about another day

I gave you all of me
Yeah yeah
All of me
All of me
All of me

I want to love
All of me
I want to give
All of me