Lost (feat. Jared Hanenburg)

At
First I had no Bones or guts, but now I
Thought that I would go nuts, in the moments
When they needed it most but I'm Struggling to speak, uhhhhhhh
Shoot, who knew rapping would be so tough
I gave it a part of my soul like a horcrux, have to
Hold my head up instead of getting soaked up with
Emotions, all in these sad traps where I'm roped up
Frozen, mind's black, but there's a chance to make most of
I'm roped up in this emotional rollercoaster, I heard
Voices before but it's like they're moving closer
The noisiest noises, to a point it's so annoying
They're toying with my brain, the pain is sick, I'm imploding
I wish there was no thing, that could get to me, but they're too
Sickening, demons in my head so wicked
I'm lost in it, all caught up in this rap show so
Off again, voices so low up to macro

Im
Lost
Lost in this darkness
Above
Lost
The hardest departure of
Love
Lost
Maybe I'll be next on that
Cross
I'm lost
I let these thoughts tear me open like
Saws
I'm lost

I
Confuse reality with fantasy, maybe cause I
Cannot see, what's real and what's fake, but there is
Stuff at stake, in my world I'm panicking, its like this
Planet is planning to banish me, but what do I
Do, It's not like there's a lot to go back too, I
Had a few, interests but the thing is rap is too
Influential, a lot of things that pencil can do, when you
Use it to, just write despite the truth, when your
Fans start biting, can't sit in plain hiding, try to
Be Clark Kent, but even Superman's crying
A Hard wreck, yeah I got a scarred head, a
Surprise to me that these other dreams aren't dead
This pressure is like adding salt to a wound, My
Mind is all twisted, all caught up and screwed, but it's
Not the way I am, just to stop and refuse, you wanna
Really hear my story, you can hop in my shoes

Im
Lost
Lost in this darkness
Above
Lost
The hardest departure of
Love
Lost
Maybe I'll be next on that
Cross
I'm lost
Let these thoughts tear me open like
Saws
I'm lost

Not
Okay, not even sure what to say, I'm up at
Night gazing, thinking the sky's amazing, am
I wasting time, simply procrastinating, I just
Can't deal with this crazy mind of mine, why am
I not alike anyone in the room, why have
I lost sight, maybe I'm being groomed, to do
Something cuckoo, I don't know how to do, tried to
Blow, before but it's just far out of use, Been
Scarred, beaten, bruised, but I can't treat brutal
Mutilation, so I move and use dictation, to
Dictate, my life but I'm on the stage
Puking paste, usual days, don't got a clue, where to
Move from here, so I aimlessly traud
Just wandering near nothing, no don't feel God he
Believes, but still won't even speak to me, I can't
Even be me, I'm weeping, yeah it's no wonder that I'm

Im
Lost
Lost in this darkness
Above
Lost
The hardest departure of
Love
Lost
Maybe I'll be next on that
Cross
I'm lost
Let these thoughts tear me open like
Saws
I'm lost