Perennial Pain

I had to sit down rearrange my thoughts
My circle is growing small it's like I have no friends
The road less traveled is the one I'ma take
So Next time we meet, don't ask me how long it'll take
For me to blow up
Hard-work is thrown out as soon as clout come in
Damn does it make sense
I used to have alot of motivation while doing this
Now I'm reminiscing to a time that I used to smile
Perennial pain you can feel it in every line
It's like I'm in denial
But, I shove it aside
They rooting for you but as soon as your tree starts to grow
The green in envy appears on the show
Mama told me you reap what you sow
That's why I'm always low key calculating on my goals
Till I become a G.O.A.T
I'll always keep it on the low
Envy greed deception
It comes with the role
My shoes too big
So don't try to step in
I can do what you do
Even when I'm asleep
But you trying to do what I do
You fail defeat
This is blood sweat and tears
And it don't come cheap
Invested a lot of time
Just to be this big
Manifested all my shine
And it came from within
So please show me how to do it
Coz I'm sick of watching time fly
Please show me how to do it
Coz I'm sick of the sidelines
Please show me how to do it
Coz I'm sick of waiting why lie
I mean it's just the sixth sense
I'm always paranoid
Somehow it don't make sense
I'm scared of failure but my talent so immense
I have the answers but I'm scared of the test
Shit

Yeah
You know sometimes it just feels like this pain is never ending
It feels like you are caught up in this huge bubble of pain
And there's no getting out
Coz every time you make one step forward it feels like you're making
Two steps backwards
And there's actually no light at the end of the tunnel
It's just pure darkness
And you're trying to fight it with all your soul
But it feels like you're trapped in this cage and there's no getting out
Although deep down you know it will end
Coz your intuition is telling you it will end
But it feels like it won't

I had to sit down rearrange my thoughts
Dreaming long term how I'll become a boss
Coz if this music fails I will have taken a loss
And I won't know how to recover from the pain it caused
Damn to keep it real
Rap is all I've known
I've worked my ass off and I still don't have the throne
But is it all in my head I overthink a lot
The future I dread is where I flop
So I sleep one eye open till I get to the top
Every day I'm hoping that I get my shot
And show you what I'm made of coz my talent is raw
Like a Jehovah witness I'll go knocking on doors
If opportunity don't come I'll go looking for sure
And I'm sure I'll find it coz that's for sure
It's my birth right and I gotta get it for sure
It's my birth right and I gotta have it for sure