These Winter Months

We've never seen snow
We've never seen rain
We lived in a paradise, and no surprise
We still felt pain

Cutting my fingernails down to the skin
He told me he'd love me
If he knew that when we fell apart, he'd win

So I bought a ticket just because
I got hooked on the way he buzzed
The way the room could get lit up once

And I'm sick of shutting up my blinds
And letting gorgeous days go by
I'm getting back my peace of mind these winter months

She told me, slow down, and said to be smart
That not every heavy moment is a work of art
I wrote her love letters, and she gave them back
Saying to change this grammar here
And keep your argument on track

So I planted flowers in the tiles' cracks
I sat to watch a while
Let my daydreams run out wild once

And it wasn't love, it isn't now
It's just affectionate snow plows
That push us in and push us out these winter months

Being alone isn't so bad
I'm sitting cross-legged in my bedroom
Talking to my dad
He's saying I'm brave for being naive
'Cause I'm learning how to watch the colors change
And grieve

In paradise, it's always green
The year is blue and so serene
Love is playing slot machines
Over and over and over and over

I never learned a single thing
Just wasted time on empty flings
And now I get to wait for spring these winter months

These winter months
These winter months