On My Own

I'm alright
I'll be fine
Trust me, I don't like the ending that I've written this time
Brand new day
Daily grind
Pour another cup of sunshine in this black heart of mine

Crack a smile
Shed a tear
Inching closer, ever closer to a life without fear
Open mind
Open wide
Take a peek inside. Maybe you'll find a reason to try

And oh, do you believe me now
And no, I'm not doing this just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change,
But for now, it feels like I am ON MY OWN

Guess I'm thinking I can self-diagnose
How the hell can an HMO know
Call the doctor and the doctor said, "Please press 1 for payment"
Terrified of the unknown
Unknown discomfort ahead
Sometimes, I wonder what it's like being normal

I guess there's something inside me just not understood
Perhaps it's all within my imagination
Clock in
Punch out
Fade in
Die out
It's just
Too much
I promise I am trying

And oh, do you believe me now
And no, I'm not doing this just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it feels like I am ON MY OWN
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish THE circumstance would change
But for now, it feels like I am ON MY OWN

Was I nurtured into this frame of mind
Or is it nature that I cannot fight
But still, I grab this pen to change my future
The past, I look to for answers, nostalgia starts to blur

I'm alright
I'll be fine
Guess you gotta just believe me when I tell you this time
No control
No complaints
Life is like a happy ending
IT DOES NOT WORK THAT WAY

And oh, do you believe me now
And no, I'm not doing this just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it feels like I am ON MY OWN
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish THE circumstance would change
But for now, it feels like I am ON MY OWN