Pretty Fallacy

Aww he said I'm pretty

Take a look around me, what do you see

I've learned to loved myself in this process
Have faith in God and continue the progress
Focus on success, rid myself of the nonsense
To appreciate the wins, I gotta live through the losses
Got issues from being adopted
But over that pain Sergei and I bonded
I still cry over leaving him behind
Trauma bonds are hard to break but it was time

Take a look around me what do you see
Ain't she pretty, ain't she pretty
A pretty fallacy

Came to my senses after my trip on DMT
I went homeless to leave
I slept in snow piles with my puppy tucked in my coat sleeve
Welcome to adulthood Corey, this is eighteen
Rock bottom hitting
Abandoned trash bin pissing
It took that to quit sinning
Turned to faith
Gotta lose everything to have nothing left to take
Begging my parents to come save me but they never came
In the dark I prayed and God sent Lori
I'll never forget that day
He gave me a guardian angel and a place to stay
It started a new chapter of this beautiful story
Of a transition into a new phase of glory

Take a look around me what do you see
Ain't she pretty, ain't she pretty
A pretty fallacy

Let's fast forward to Matty
I blame myself for being way too full
Too full of so much tragedy
You look at life different when you've been buried alive
Blindfolded and taken to the woods in the dead of night
But that prepared me for the very worst years of my life
Stability was something I could only fantasize
And he gave me a taste of what that felt like
He was my superman
Always there to save me from my own mind
But he left and he said I was his kryptonite
He said we both had to let go and get right
He said it came down to fight or flight
He shared his war stories and I shared mine
I still cry over him leaving me behind
Trauma bonds are hard to break but it was time

Take a look around me what do you see
Ain't she pretty, ain't she pretty
A pretty fallacy

But hold on there's more to the story

After my past I was scared to strip down and be intimate
Once I was ready I came home and the bedroom was candlelit
He kissed my scars that night, that man could handle it
It took months for me to give in but he never demanded it
He helped me find access to love,
To be a woman that is soft and can still be tough
Always respectful though, he treated me like a queen
That's why the ending was so tragic and unforeseen
I never saw him as someone so deceitful and mean
I tried to move on but it's happened again and again
I ask myself how much more can I really withstand
How can I feel this broken over a man
Tell me will I ever love again

Take a look around ain't my life look pretty
Privileged, wealthy and fulfilling
Well the face behind the mask is chilling
You'll unveil yours too
God willing

Still think I'm pretty