Endless IV

I wake up, another day begin
Brew a couple cups of coffee
Drink em in succession
Too many smokes in the throne room, so soon
Before my cartoons going
And my blood gets flowing
At stretches in the AM
Walk a couple Km
Hit the gas station, turn around
Feel a panic attack from underground
But I keep it inside, don't make a sound
Get home, wash up, it's awful hot in the summer
Hydrate and lay down to mediate another, mann
You see the greatness within one's self
But have a little trouble when the hand gets dealt
I'm hella overwhelmed, mind goes blank
Got me feeling like I don't have an ounce in my tank
Boil over mania, brave the release
For practice is the only way to save your belief

This gets endless
Endless
Got me stuck, in the endless
Endless
This gets endless
Endless
Feeling like my only witness, yeah, uhh
This gets endless
Endless
Got me stuck up in the endless
Endless
This gets endless
Endless
I'm my only witness
It feels as if I did this, before

Before, now that's a loaded line
Hard to pour over 11 thousand 4 hundred and 84 different times
To pick the ones that I like
Then ignore those and focus on
The ones that cause spikes in my emotion
My life, is only what I make it
Perspective is important and projection ain't basic
Give ya day a face lift, move it around
Find what gives ya power and advance on the ground
Fighting mental health is kinda like guerrilla warfare
Shoot em up and disappear into brush
But if ya shut it down, turn into a sit and stare
You'll be given nothing more than such, but
By the days end something still feels wrong
I can't quite place it, but it's there all along
The pressure is on, midnight'll repeat
I blew out a heavy breath
Rest eyes and grind teeth
To sleep