No Better (Party Dad Forever) [Live]

Your song's always stuck in my head
About patterns and sweaters
Every time I think that I'm getting better
You show up in my dreams
You're a little drunk
And more than a little stoned
And you don't speak to me
You just sit and nod along
I wish I could make you laugh
Bcause I think I miss your laugh the most
Thank god Tommy got that shit on video

It's that empty couch
Where you used to sleep
It's this quiet you I never knew
The only you I see in my dreams
When I'm awake at night
Which is almost all the time now
I barely sleep
I play back all those songs we wrote
Just so I can hear you sing

I pull your records from their sleeves
They still smell like patchouli
I kind of hope they do forever
And I'm still not getting better
If I'm being honest
I'm barely keeping my shit together
I'm tired of this weather
And I just wanna leave
You used to play me this album
Sitting over at your old apartment
Saying dude, it's so good
Come on, how can you not love this
So I snagged it for myself
When we were splitting up your stuff
I figured it deserved another chance
If you loved it that much

It's still not my favorite
But I'll play it when I miss you sometimes

Now it's this empty house
Where I can never sleep
I hear you snoring on the couch
Somehow louder than the blaring TV
I shake myself awake
I know that it's just a dream
And there's still no one here
But the devil and me
There is nobody here but the devil and me
There is nobody here but the devil and me
There is nobody here but the devil and me
There is still no one here but me

Timing is everything
Timing is everything

Now you're in my headphones stuck on repeat
Telling me that timing is everything
But goddammit you couldn't have picked a worse time to leave

Timing is everything
Timing is everything
Timing is everything
Timing is everything
Timing is everything
Timing is everything
Timing is everything
Timing is everything

J, it's been months now
Does it ever get better
I swear I haven't smiled for real since September
And I know it's not your fault
It feels wrong to feel angry
But most nights I feel like I'm going fucking crazy
And I'm not scared to die cause it feels like I already left
When you did
I'm just out floating around through what's left of my life
Always talking to you in my head