Self Doubt

Another sip for the pain toast to you guys
Another hit from the J
I'm never too high
Can't work for minimum wage
No not again
I need all the chants and hoorays be coming in I

I pen my work on this paper
Hope it pay off
Can't work for minimum wage
No not again nah
I hope to see a new day
With new horizons
And that this blunt take the pain
That's why I stay high

The hoodie can't keep you safe once the clouds roll
The purple all in the rain
That's coming down slow
Gotta prepare for the days it be a down pour
We know the ship is gone sink
So swim or drown bro

Ain't got the room to complain
Most of it my fault
But I still scream at the rain
Whenever clouds fall
One day they'll wash me away
But I'll just make more mistakes
That'd be such a waste
I hope they save em

I hope they lay low
I hope they know that it's some places that I can't go
I won't go
I hope they trust me on my say so
But they don't trust me at all
I barely trust me at all
I gotta play close
I hope they lay low
I hope they know that it's some places that I can't go
I won't go
I hope they trust me on my say
But they don't trust me at all
I barely trust me at all
I gotta play close

Lonely in these bedsheets
Thumping in my chest piece
Something don't feel right here
But can't leave where they left me
Dolo how I roll now
Quietly just smoke loud
Contemplating fate
And if this destiny or forced out
Hope one day they miss me
But if not ain't no stressing
Think that I'm at peace
That if it's meant to then it will be
Still find myself wishing
One day spotlight hit me
So these words ain't just cries
To the abyss, they won't feel empty

Feelin broke down and exhausted, never bitter
I been worse off with all things considered
I been down bad, never down and out
I ain't found glad but I found a sound to
Pour all of my woes in
I'm wore out but I'm floating
Been searchin through the oceans for like 300 months
Hope I don't drown in my emotions
'Fore I see my brother strut across the stage
Don't need that awkward phase of picking coffins, graves
Cough my lungs up all the time
Of all the days, not on occasion

I hope they lay low
I hope they know that it's some places that I can't go
I won't go
I hope they trust me on my say
But they don't trust me at all
I barely trust me at all
I gotta play close
I hope they lay low
I hope they know that it's some places that I can't go
I won't go
I hope they trust me on my say
But they don't trust me at all
I barely trust me at all
I gotta play close