As I Pass Away

"When was the last time that I felt this way?
Was something that got lost in time? Was it even me?
There it comes, there it goes
No one knows, where it goes
I swapped all my pawns to build myself a tower with no windows
I spent my days locked in this box until I passed away
All in vain. For cures are futile
For there's no cure for the brain

I've got too much memory of the man I used to be
I used to stay in the openness of nature, now I managed to get free
No more days spent looking for a nurture, I stepped on my own brain
I've won over desire of isolation, I know I won't be alone.
To all those who tried to save me from myself: go fuck yourself!
You needed me only for my wallet and my work strength
Now where you'll be going? I'd like to see you again
Drowning in your own mud, devouring your own spleen
Trying to figure out your way out of this green

As I pass away I find myself enjoying the moment
I see my past and present, now I see all
I figured out to find a way
My way out of this green
Come and see what I'm going to become, the most
Beautiful spectacle you've ever seen

I don't care of the coincidences that brought my own birth
Because all births are vain if you don't find a way to appreciate all of this green
I was the one in my company of friends who never recovered from the discovery of
The shining diamond hidden deep in the Earth which some call vanity
Down below, where not even grass nor biodiversity grow
I held a feeling of anger and hate and contempt grow like a cancer
I used to think only for myself, I thought the others wanted my style
Fortunately I realized before it was too late they wanted me alive

There was a time that I convinced myself that work was the way
To find a way out of this green and finally be free
But work has gone out, stealing's gone in
Honesty is out of fashion and life has become a joke
How can you mend this broken, depressed brain
From getting stale and lazy until the world is drained?
I can see, you're just there for my life
That's why I locked myself here. You'll never take me alive

As I pass away I know you'll be very sad
You had an opportunity and you let it out
And don't think you're safe, I'll have my revenge
Through reincarnation, I'll take you away
Down below my shining diamond
Is getting glow"
And he closed his diary