Ladybug

Ladybug, ladybug where'd you go?

I'm sitting here reminiscing bout the life that I'm living
The thoughts I've been thinking, the energy I'm giving
Bridges I've burned, the ones never crossed
It's six in the morning, I'm texting my boss
Can't come in again cuz my sanity is lost
It took the day off, so I'm way deep in thought
My mind far away at a distant galaxy
The decisions I've made, they stay haunting me
Funny how life goes, how it changes and skews
Realities blur - many turns to a few
Friends start to leave; were they friends from the start
I ponder these questions with pain in my heart
I'm feeling excluded - a crew what's the point
I can't be defrocked if I never really joined
Loneliness, ignorance, Yo what's the difference
I don't know the answer and that's my admittance

Ladybug, ladybug where'd you go
I heard a song on the radio
Reminded me that I love you so
But lately it seems we don't talk no more
Ladybug, ladybug where'd you go
I put this song on the radio
To remind you that I love you so
Ladybug, ladybug please come home

I've been looking for love in all the wrong places
An over played line, and yet so complaisant
I sit as I write this, it's not the first time
That I put my emotions together in rhyme
Not my first rodeo, not my first show
But it's the first time that I saw the unknown
As something I want to explore and adorn
Words out my chest, on a journey they go
They twirl and they weave on a thin filiform
And into the air they get caught by a storm
They give life to dreams - and I start to chase
Out of the soul windowpanes on my face
The blues paint a medley made from the rain
It's shattered by angels and heavenly slain
It's textured with thorns and roses alike
A beauty so painful, I call it my life

Ladybug, ladybug where'd you go
I heard a song on the radio
Reminded me that I love you so
But lately it seems we don't talk no more
Ladybug, ladybug where'd you go
I put this song on the radio
To remind you that I love you so
Ladybug, ladybug please come home

The God of the universe looks out for me
Divine intervention is all that I see
I count my ten fingers, a checkpoint of sorts
I've got what I need, who am I to want more
These Ladybug letters, I wrote them for him
I made them specific to something so big
It can't be defined, proven, or tested
No human experiments, theories, or lessons
Could ever tell me that my life's not a blessing
I've spent nights in hospitals, mom by my side
Considered the worst, thoughts of suicide
Now tell me to thrive when I barely survived
You may think its raw, dirty old laundry
But this is my heart, it won't settle for tawdry
Only the finest of texts to express
Turned twenty-three here, and not the abyss