Disguise

All of my friends think im fine because it shows on the outside
But it's a disguise smile on my face to hide how i feel inside
Truth is i lie bottle up the pain and go out for a car ride
I'm not saying that i drink and drive
But sometimes i want to drink and drive
I'm at the lowest point of my life
I said i love you to someone
And before i was able to say it twice
I let her go for someone else it was the biggest mistake of my life
I was blind you let me see the world through your eyes and im
To damn high to apologize

I can see clear now
I'm focused trying to live right instead of living in the moment
I keep on rolling up rolling off molly exotic
Sick to my stomach i think im going to vomit
Shit she hate when im off it
Told her i can't really function without it
I use my feelings as an emotional outlet
Because i got a fucked up mindset in my head
I'm not scared to die because im already dead in my head
I'm losing myself and it's hard to digest the truth why
Because all ive been told is lies
Swear i been hurt too many times
I gave a bitch my heart and soul and she left with both on demon time
I got more money then patience wait bitch hell no im tired of waiting
She heard my song now she wanna get naked
She want to fuck with a star in the making
Three point five in the wood face it
No friends no rotation
He must be foreign or broke dont know what he saying
I'm speaking money language

All of my friends think im fine because it shows on the outside
But it's a disguise smile on my face to hide how i feel inside
Truth is i lie bottle up the pain and go out for a car ride
I'm not saying that i drink and drive
But sometimes i want to drink and drive
I'm at the lowest point of my life
I said i love you to someone
And before i was able to say it twice
I let her go for someone else it was the biggest mistake of my life
I was blind you let me see the world through your eyes and im
To damn high to apologize