Been A While

Girl when you be on my mind
It be all that I can think about
Yeah, I think I'ma say that shit... I be in this bitch high as hell
I'll fuck around go off top... shit been easy lately
Ya' know, I just be telling how I be feeling and all that, you know

I don't really be telling nobody else life, fuck that shit
Hmm, just tell how this shit is
Tell how I feel
Nah, I don't write no more for real

You know, gotta get that shit off my chest
Alright fuck it I'ma just... lemme stop talking

Girl when you be on my mind, it be hard enough to get you out
Then I see yo' smile, and that's all that I can think about
I was stuck in depression
You the one who helped to get me out
Just off the first impression
I done started catching feelings now, but it been a while
Since I tapped into them feelings, wow
Man, it hurt to say I'm heartless, but I turned into a menace now

Yeah, I grew up in the trenches
With no interest in the killing
Let a nigga play with you, though
Baby girl, and I'ma kill 'em
And lately how I been feeling, they acting like I'm a villain
Reality hit, and I ain't been happy in a lil minute'
I been dreaming about you causing my happiness for a living
Then I be second guessing like
"Nah, that probably ain't what she feeling"

Feel like my soul really been craving you
I ain't gone play with you
When this crush had first developed
My goal was to make a way to you
I know that you've been broken and it take time to heal
So I'm willing to wait for you
I might never run out of patience

'Cause I gave my heart to the ones who ain't deserve it
Stressing over all the ones who wasn't worth it
But to me, you perfect
Nobody perfect, if I show love
Just want the reimbursements
I get treated like more of a monster instead of a person

How you gonna make a nigga bleed then wonder why I'm hurting?
Brody said it's more of life to see than what lies on the surface
Maybe we just need to let it be, our options never working
Never worth it, love running empty, you leave for any purpose

You make it way too damn easy to fill these empty verses
Yo secrets came onto me, I didn't have to do no lurking
You got the spot hot, then wonder why all yo bridges burning
Practice what you preach, the more you talk, the less time spent for learning
I'm tryna start with a clean plate, my sins is dish detergent
But every time I reach out I feel like I've been a burden
I wished we moved more connected, like words that's wrote in cursive
Why you take out your pain on people you know that don't deserve it?

But I don't ever question shit 'cause that's the way we live
The Hate U Give outweighs the love, but that's just how it is
Wrote my feelings on a letter but I never sent it
Scared to put my trust into you just to feel abandoned

Whoever recommended love, I'm hurt that you referred me
Don't treat me like my last 'cause that ended in the worst way
I be thugging by yo side even if it's on our worst days
Put you in Chanel when you throw fits like it's yo birthday (yeah)

'Cause I gave my heart to the ones who ain't deserve it
Stressing over all the ones who wasn't worth it
But to me, you perfect
Nobody perfect, if I show love
Just want the reimbursements
I get treated like more of a monster instead of a person

How you gonna make a nigga bleed then wonder why I'm hurting?
Brody said it's more of life to see than what lies on the surface
Maybe we just need to let it be, our options never working
Never worth it, love running empty, you leave for any purpose

'Cause I gave my heart to the ones who ain't deserve it
Stressing over all the ones who wasn't worth it
But to me, you perfect
Nobody perfect, if I show love
Just want the reimbursements
I get treated like more of a monster instead of a person

How you gonna make a nigga bleed then wonder why I'm hurting?
Brody said it's more of life to see than what lies on the surface
Maybe we just need to let it be, our options never working
Never worth it, love running empty, you leave for any purpose

It's Zayy