Tainted

So many things I could've said but didn't
And you can give me some advice after I finish
This bottle that slows my movement dulls my English
My heart's telling me push my liver to it's limits
Starting to think, then overthink then over drink
Somebody stop me I'm bout to fall, I'm on the brink
This all I know and all I've been doing lately
You say I'm killing myself but just please don't hate me
Mom thinks I'm fine, Pop has no idea
Haven't spoke to my sister for the most of the year
Family is everything but I don't wanna talk on the phone
Just wanna leave the pain and take a plane back home
Cause this shit's too real but I gotta deal with it
That night on the grass, thought that you were feeling it
Dreams in my sleep of what we could've been
Wish you would've chosen me over him

'Cause I wanna hear you sing about me
Don't look far in the crowd
I'm always right there so proud
'Cause I wanna hear you sing about me
It's the love in your voice
But I guess you made your choice
You were the only person the only thing I could see
And I wanted you to sing about me

Every smile every laugh every word you'd say
Made me wanna see you play on that stage all day
Really thought I could count on you to stay
Now my friends are all concerned asking if I'm okay
Well no I'm not, I may have a problem
Constantly chugging, I can never see the bottom
"We'll always be friends" is a statement now tainted
When you look into my eyes can you tell my heart is breaking?
Shaking when I told you how I felt
Found the bar that day after I lost myself
I'm ashamed, I got no one to blame
Just know I still get excited when you call out my name
Give me your heart or a chance or
Something to hold on to
'Cause I feel complete when I'm there right beside you
In this city so cruel you made me feel at home
Now I sit on my own all alone

That's why I wanna hear you sing about me
Don't look far in the crowd
I'm always right there so proud
'Cause I wanna hear you sing about me
It's the love in your voice
But I guess you made your choice
You were the only person the only thing I could see
And I wanted you to sing about me

It's not easy seeing you two together
Looking at you both I could stay drunk forever
I could break my arm again that would still hurt less
Doesn't matter cause for you I only want the best
So you can keep all the gifts I gave you
Not always at church but you know I still pray for you
Told me one day I'd find the perfect girl
But I wouldn't trade that summer for the world
Cause how do I know if things will be alright
When I spend too many nights by those neon lights
Friends found me empty bottles around me
But If he makes you happy, don't worry bout me
Tell the world but this is for your ears to hear
And know I'll always be here for you, my dear
Let me say to see you, I'm always grateful
And despite your flaws I still saw you as an angel

And I wanted you to sing about me
And I wanted you to sing about me
And I wanted you to sing about me
I hope you don't forget about me



Credits
Writer(s): Paolo Sebastian C. Alegrado
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