Breaking Points

Started my sentence clocking 40 hours
Locked in mathematical towers
Jotting my thoughts till they gained the power to overthrow creative doubters
Collected two degrees and dipped before my twenties
Hit honor roll, but this what I wanted to blow
Step back and listen how this story told

There's something about facing hunger
Makes you work harder than ever
Why not strive for something better when you're living a life feeling lesser?
I'm a workaholic, take it away and I start acting diabolic
Chronic obsession with success and a symbolic meaning that I'm feening
For something to off the buzz
I don't work just 'cause
It's something to keep my head above the water like it does
My drug isn't B.A.C raising higher in my blood
My drug is staying in and picking my beats like its a bud and releasing my music to be judged

Tell me what I'm not
Tell me what I don't got
I got breaking points, find them inside every moving joint
I got a bad heart, look who I appoint to love me in the dark
I got extreme tension in my soul and I don't listen when I'm gonna blow

The true definition of a first generational one per-center
I know how to get the bag and defend her
Protect so well, I charge interest when I spend her

I been paying my own way since 16
I remember whipping that 93' Toyota bone stock on fifteens
Ducking in traffic when I saw the prom queen
California summers had me sweating with no A.C
Fast metabolism left me hungry for things I envision
So I gripped a pen, stood tall, never timid
Past thoughts of my pops left me livid
Now giving it everything I got

Black bags surrounding my lids like I'm a single mom with four kids
I work day in and day out, stacking on red like it's a bid
I got addiction to the grind, I'm running out of time
My family rotting away at home, but here I sit alone
All tucked away in this apartment home
Wishing I could make like E.T and phone, but egos stand solid
Shit ain't been the same since the day I left college
This tape needs to drop but I'm stalling
Isolation has only caused me to rise to the occasion while
I ignore the disconnection that I'm facing

Poetically incorrect, so I deeply dissect my words to spit more absurd and give y'all a show
While the white boy goes berserk teaching y'all how to work
You want a dream?
So you better find time to grind and get your mind aligned
With what you define as a plan birth from divine

I always wanted more so I went and chased like
I'm a whore looking for big bills to spend at my favorite store
Practice makes perfect and if you saw this book, you'd see I've been working
Sunrise to sundown, my nine to five, then I plug in to feel alive
Produce a beat to revive my drive
Loop it, then open the book to dive in
Like I'm swimming, Micheal Phelps
I've been writing instead of screaming for help

Silence my phone to keep in the zone
No ringing, these verses the only tone

Tell me what I'm not
Tell me what I don't got
I got breaking points, find them inside every moving joint
I got a bad heart, look who I appoint to love me in the dark
I got extreme tension in my soul and I don't listen when I'm gonna blow