With All Due Respect

With all due respect, I'm happy that you feel truly blessed
But your mind's the type that flew over the cuckoo's nest
Never asked you to tell me who's the mess
Didn't need drugs or booze for me to be pursuing death
Act like children go through same shit like kids meals
When older ones violate the young, it's no big deal
Forgot your slaps makes the toughest kid squeal?
Type that got someone like me wishing he'd get killed
Wanting to run away, but the fucking treadmill
Of life wouldn't let me off, feel like the mental's lost
Constantly running, say it's all in my head
So was suicidal thoughts, thank God that it fled
It kept coming back like the torment of your miracle
Pretend like her actions wouldn't make her a fucking criminal
The way she consumed me, she's practically a wendigo
Nothing innocent about her dry humping my genitals
Now it's true, kids go through curiosity
But almost a decade, she insist to ride on top of me
Afraid of the monster, when I wanted her to stop, I freeze
Only way to forget is a lobotomy
Say you been through worse but I'm seeing sameness
You used to live with a killer and I with my rapist
You say blood is sacred despite if it's tainted
But you never had the gall, criticizing your favorite
Like you're killer roommate, they gotten away with
Their crimes, different paths of debauchery painted
For us, You became a Casanova
I tried showing my heart and lasses cast it over
Cuz I am not you, even despite our looks
You knew how to fight, I knew how to write a hook
This little light of mine never shined a path away for me
Til my new home had a vacancy
Now it's plain to see, brighter days have broke horizon
The Nephilim and his mom found a place that hooked our eyes in
The sound of silence was awkward at first
Made my art an assignment to calm the heart from the hurt
But after many days passed, I realized something
With distance from the both of you, I'm terrified of nothing
I'm done with the pushing, done with the shoving
Done being used like a bag made for punching
Done with her manipulation putting me on stand
And I'm done with your toxic definition of a man

Remember I will always love you
But sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Remember I will always love you
But sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Remember I will always love you
But sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Remember I will always love you
But sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away
Sometimes I want to claw your fucking throat away