Summertime Sweaters

Happy or apathy I can't tell the difference
I'd have to look at ends and means to see that image
What option was better
Never said This is great
It's like I'm selling sweaters
When it's a hundred and thirty eight
Just tryna do what I love
Would You still have the dream if You knew what it was
Would you be where I be with no sound of buzz
Probably posting online like man I give up
You do you though
Way Back in 06 I was writing in a notepad
Same one I would go to use for my first raps
And I ain't even gone lie to you man that shits trash
But it gave me what I ain't have
EBT filling my stomach
Back and forth to homes where I never felt wanted
Kept my eyes to the floor and my head near a summit
Told myself break a leg came off stage with some crutches
Hopped on a high horse told that bitch get to running
Had to find a mount when they said I was nothing
Just surviving the drought kept my tear ducts flooded
I put my life in this pen
And if I lived another life I would do it again
For the sleepless nights nightmares that won't end
You ain't got to believe that Imma cop me a Benz

I'm just sewing another sweater
Around those who do the same

And I know it makes me better
Because I know the ways I've changed
Yeah I know it makes me better
Because I know the ways I've changed

Break me down fill me up with empty promises
You scared of failure so you by mine commenting
We teach our kids that happiness comes with profiting
More than half of mine was found while processing
I saw memories in off keys
Scream I'm on a roll spit a verse that was off beat
Didn't matter what it did for me
You only asking if it's getting cheese
I understand your concerns
But you aren't here to talk I found a spot for my words
When ashes become ash it don't matter what I earned

I'm still sewing another sweater
Around those who do the same
And I know it makes me better
Because I know the ways I've changed
Yeah I know it makes me better
Because I know the ways I've changed