Awakening

Sometimes in life
We have to choose between happiness, and success
But what if you choose both
I feel like it's inevitable
Because the more happy you trying to get
The more success fades away from your goal
And vice versa
The more success you're trying to reach
The more happiness you feel like losing from yourself
So what is it that truly matters

Sometimes your happiness makes you question yourself, is this enough
All the energy that I saved, is this too much
Plan A don't go always at what it plan
But I know deep down, there's always better around
Realization is too much but I need to think it
Pain is so easy to read, it's like a sentence
Coping mechanisms works, sometimes it wouldn't
Music my escape from this world, so please let me

Preach on you people
Listen to the pain that I've been through
Hear my music loud, get the message while you heal through
It's all about the process with this life, you will go through
No matter what will happen with your life, God is with you
A bitter taste for my other homies
They couldn't see the beauty of this life that God has gifted
That's why I want to be alone 'cause there's no connection
What they feeling and I can't relate it

L's that I took, the summary of my greatness
Every progress that I've been on, this is the latest
Disconnection
My faith with God, man I gotta find it
Fighting all this demons, but man sometimes they catch me
It's hard to keep up with spiritual, when you're ambitious
Hustle what I've been on, for months, I feel ferocious
I just want the cherry on top, I'll be victorious
That's why I keep spittin' these bars feel like notorious
And I'm still aiming, after all, for what had happened
The pain in my chest reach brain now it's all mental
Runaway sprinting real fast, the pain catching
Allure myself, put the white gold necklace

This is the process, this is the progress
I'm having visions from my third eye, this is awakening
Higher self beat my ego, sometimes it be hard
To keep myself up, get squared up, and be on detox

22nd of November that's my biggest challenge
I never thought, it would be far, from the home I'm living
Too many risks I have taken, and I'm still here taking
Just to reach the destination from the other side
Green grass, money trees
Now I'm chasin' every dollar, slavin' on this hustlin
Living in this matrix, and I feel like glitching
I need the faith in my heart, 'cause I'm really lacking

I need the faith in my heart, 'cause I'm really lacking
Lord, God, I need you