Shards

Losing the pieces of me
I give away with every please
Bow to what you think I need
Despite how much I'm breaking

And I don't think I can
Be someone I can stand
Giving in to your demands
For your promised land

I won't turn my eyes from the glaring truth
I'm not living blind to thoughtless abuse
Don't think I've caught on
But I'm proving you wrong

And what you kept hidden, I finally see
Right through this prison you built for me
Is this what you wanted?
To keep me on my guard, and

I don't remember how to trust
Effortlessly, like I used to
I'm tired of giving myself up
Don't know who I am, but I won't be you

Losing the pieces of me
I hear the fragments crack beneath
These desperate demanding feet
It's not so simple, I don't think

I can ever be whole again
But maybe with the shards I can
Build a life worth living in
A haven

Never had to go on my own
But I've gotta suffer to become strong
I'll fight through these fears
And make up for wasted years

You said you're righteous, that I'd be free
But that was the lie just to capture me
Is this what you wanted?
I'm forever haunted

And I don't remember how to trust
Effortlessly, like I used to
And I'm tired of giving myself up
Don't know who I am, but I won't be you

And I don't remember how to trust
(Losing the pieces of me)
(I give away with every please)
I'm tired of giving myself up
(Hear the fragments crack beneath)
(These desperate, demanding feet)

Oh, I don't remember how to trust
(And I don't think I can)
(Be someone I can stand)
I'm tired of giving myself up
Don't know who I am, but I won't be you