Against Me

There's nothing beautiful about it
The way my body defies
The very thing that it was made for
How my mind and my muscles conspire

Against me
My whole self is against me
And I don't know how to win when I'm the enemy to fight

Hold it all in, shut it all out
No one's getting inside
And I didn't mean to build such strong boundaries
And leave my spirit deprived
But they're too strong to challenge, too high to climb
And now I'm completely confined

And would you hold it against me
If you knew how I battled against me
Would you hold it against me
If I told you

How the silent pain always hits the hardest
And the involuntary controls
Your mouth, your eyes, the shaming in naming
Eventually takes a toll

It's all working against me
It's always been working against me
Oh I am against me
And I don't know how to win when I'm the enemy to fight
And the only question left unanswered is: why?



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Writer(s): Paige Vansickle
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