Restless Teen

I know I'm boutta sound pessimistic, yeah
I know I'm boutta sound pessimistic, yeah
I know I'm boutta sound pessimistic
But I think I'm finna die in my youth
So I been tryna make the most of the days and the friends that I have
So I light up and blaze and when I get in my bag
I been like Toph in her element
Blindly rocking non-stop, I'm not sober or celibate
I got attention deficit
But when you're teen it's seen as a prerequisite
I found a delicacy, pretending my body ain't delicate
Seems like everything's ending to me
Cause I act like my future's irrelevant
And I don't mean to make this sentiment seem like it's correct
Cause I know what's best
But when I fall too damn hard my health I disregard
And if it's a test of will, I guess that I've lost
Cause my head stays still and morals are crossed
When my self worth is at large
So I take some other shit with my friends then I got lit, aye
And take all i can get 'til my problems don't exist
And if I it's enough to kill, I'll just drop to the floor
I can't take this shit anymore

Restless teens, restless teens, in a basement
Magazines, limousines, and a facelift
Let it be, let it be, nah we impatient
Take a sip, take a hit, now we famous
Restless teens, restless teens with a deathwish
Popping p's, LSD, til we get sick
Tweak on the floor
Til we can't anymore

I've been laying on ground for a few hours
Hungover as fuck, but still I chug from my grail
I can't seem to succeed 'cause decent's never enough
That's how I was brought up, so now I'm destined to fail
I'm anxious, I'm spiteful, I'm taxing myself constantly
I pour myself so honestly in music that had promised me a little bit of self respect
Yet all it caused is more self deprecation
My frustrations been summations of my faults
That come back to assault me anytime I'm ain't sober
Mistakes thrown in my face, leave me so out of place
Incidentally staining me mentally with a migraine that persists through the day
And days turn to weeks, I'm stuck weak and impatient
Staring at the door to my future, it was built with no knob
I'mma be another suburban loser probably trapped in a 9 to 5 job
Watching all my dreams dissolve
When I look back, school was a mess
By the time I graduated I was so damn depressed
I thought going to college would solve it, but now I'm in stuck debt
I'm facing all the same old problems and I can't get advice
'Cause all my friends self medicated like me
And the adults that I know hate they're life
It feels like I'm screaming into a void
But no one ever seems to even hear it
Cause inside this hole's nothing but white noise
Cause all that's inside is just more people screaming

Restless teens, restless teens, in a basement
Magazines, limousines, and a facelift
Let it be, let it be, nah we impatient
Take a sip, take a hit, now we famous
Restless teens, restless teens with a deathwish
Popping p's, LSD, til we get sick
Tweak on the floor
Til we can't anymore

Coke, sprite, dirty
Blow, dimes, swerving
Take a sip, take a hit
Low life worries
Coke, sprite, dirty
Blow, dimes, swerving
Take a sip, take a hit
Low life worries

I wish I could be nostalgic
But looking back's obnoxious because i wasted my teen years
And I can't dry these tears and move on cause can't even cry no more
After spending my childhood spiraling into dysphoria
By my senior year of high school, I was so jaded
With my mental state and actions I would take out of self hatred
I was cutting every week, would purge after i eat
I was bulimic, suicidal, addicted and in denial
And I'm better off tryna be better, than tryna take my life
But I'm still dropping toxic behaviors
I still relapse when I'm sad and aimless
And i been going through shit recently
And now I'm back to smoking weed and popping pills when I get anxious
I've been sinning so you best call a deacon cause I'm always tweaking
And I got no beacon when my hope is fleeting
Sure I been eating but I still be fiending
Cause nothing's enough and I snap for no reason
My genius was secret but leaking and seeping
Through layers of skin that I'm shedding and shearing
To make new achievements, I'm stretching and reaching
So right before 2022, instead tryna kill myself again
I went to the emergency room, got a referral for a psychiatrist
And do I think finally getting medicated will be the way that I cope?
Well I hope sure so
I guess in about a year's time I'll let y'all know

Restless teens, restless teens, in a basement
Magazines, limousines, and a facelift
Let it be, let it be, nah we impatient
Take a sip, take a hit, now we famous
Restless teens, restless teens with a deathwish
Popping p's, LSD, 'til with get sick
Can't take no more
Can't take no more