Ambition

I can wake up in a year, and find out I'm the next big thing
Or I can wake up in a year and be homeless
My life's a crystal ball, one that I hold but can't predict
And this world's a labyrinth that I'm roaming
I think will I ever make it big and I find myself torn
I'm technically more likely get traction than I was to be born
But recently I been aimless, between praise, between scorn
Because regardless of opinions I still wanna be more

I'm gonna live my live til I drop dead
Couldn't believe your eyes when I dropped in
I been on my grind, had to lock it
I'mma put up a fight like a mosh pit
Smoking on za 'til my eyes red
Hop in the drive put on millage
They say I'm out my mind, I'm just vibing
I hope they realize bitch I'm wilding

Locked in on my grind or maybe locked into obsession
Sama slipping on that existential slope I don't got much direction
Flow so absurd that I might be spitting camus
Hop up on the mic they be like Sama is a damn fool
But I've been split in parts and some don't work
My interest comes in short lil spurts
I'm wondering what this all worth if I fall down before I'm out
Out the box my job to toss that caution to the wind
Sick of always spinning music be the medicine
Hoping that the goal stays infinite
Strong chin been built for the big hit
No god can kill my ambition
Bad boy like I played for the pistons
Cooking til the mix so addictive
Sama sequenced in perfect position
But I fear all the knowledge I'm chasing
And time in a line so I'm stuck here waiting

I'm gonna live my live til I drop dead
Couldn't believe your eyes when I dropped in
I been on my grind, had to lock it
I'mma put up a fight like a mosh pit
Smoking on za 'til my eyes red
Hop in the drive put on millage
They say I'm out my mind, I'm just vibing
I hope they realize bitch I'm wilding

Caught up in other's assumptions I sunk myself into dazes
Trying to please everybody, I threw myself in their cages
I lost my soul in confusion like ink that smudged off of pages
No gaul to step in my shoes
Let alone step on these stages
Until I realized people get jealous when I'm in a room
I be saying the stupidest shit, but getting a crowd in a mood
So I stopped giving a shit about my loud attitude
Cause even when I'm at my worst I'm more rousing than you
It's like my braindead peers be bargaining just for another gimmick
Copy other artists to start a record and spin it
I'mma carve my craft to make sure that I ain't generic
Take my time like TARDISes shedding until i get it, uh
Think to diss you'll lose your whole audience 'fore you finish
Y'all just chicken out like popeyes, your pockets ain't got no spinach
I'm coming with the illest clique, it's Vicegryp
And I'm learning how to fly in spite of everytime my wings were clipped
I was living my life undercover
Was quiet bout drugging but I been recovering
Every day was a haze
I thought I'd be taking mistakes to the grave cause i dug a pit
I'm real, don't mistake me for that other shit
For sucker shit, fake struggling
Tellinf friends that your thugging to look rugged
I ain't sold drugs, but was hooked on them
I been kicking prescription addictions
While staying composed enough to keep on living
While staying a role model for my little sister
While getting good grades in school even when im not pillin
I used to be everybody's puppet
But now i'm saying if you don't like me, suck it
I give a fuck like the clergy, nun
Unapologetically me, I'll change for no one

I'm gonna live my live til I drop dead
Couldn't believe your eyes when I dropped in
I been on my grind, had to lock it
I'mma put up a fight like a mosh pit
Smoking on za 'til my eyes red
Hop in the drive put on millage
They say I'm out my mind, I'm just vibing
I hope they realize bitch I'm wilding