Why Do I Exist

Why do i exist
Just want my soul to disappear in The mist
Every little thing gets me pissed
Is it me or is it you
I love you but i know im not the Only person
Not the only person, Not the only Person
Every time i fuck up i feel like a Burden
You say you don't do shit but thats What shows above the surface
What about below it
What about below it
What if there's a bunch of shit you Do without me noticing
What if im not the only person You are focusing on

Man this shit is crazy
How can you love someone when You repeatedly eye down on other Dudes
Its so fucking awkward
Pay attention to your lover instead Of making him feel so bothered
Today can be the last day i breathe
Its too late for me im going Underneath
Will people even miss me
Or will they just mourn move on And forget about all the shit i did
Damn maybe i need help
Maybe its too late for people to Save me well
Its destined to happen
No one can fix me and im not even Capping
What the fuck do i have to do to Not feel insecure
Telling me to not worry about About anything when there is a lot Of shit to worry about
Without a doubt
Do i even make you feel aroused Anymore
I give you my everything do you Want more
Yeah but not from me
You probably think im blind but i Can see
Whats all done in the dark will Shine and fall on me
Give me reassurance instead of Beating me down mentally
Momma im sorry im a Disappointment
Don't even know if school is for Me but imma keep it going
This music is the main thing Please trust the process
Its a work in progress
My life is falling but imma keep on Balling
Can't wait till i get stacks and give Them to my family and see their Eyes bawling
Seems so far fetched but im not Even stalling
Derealization gets me frustrated
Sometimes i don't even know who I am and i get faded
I get faded
Yeah i get faded
No one cares about my mental Health
How the fuck am i supposed to be Happy when i hate myself
Yeah i fucking despise myself
I hate the way i think it just ruins My health
I've been a depressed young boy Since i was twelve
Shit ever since my dad left this Earth i've been feeling empty
Sometimes i think about going up There with him that shit is so Tempting but
I gotta persevere and stay here for My siblings and all my peers
Live your dreams with confidence And not fear



Credits
Writer(s): Carlos Aguilar
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