To Ask

When I was 15
My father started acting like he didn't recognize me anymore
They said it was the teen years
The attitude and bullshit
But when I looked in the mirror
I didn't know who it was standing there
His hopeful daughter
I abandoned her that summer
When I went back to find her she was dead
And now he's got me instead

I thought I was over it
I thought we were done
You're an oncoming train that I could never get away from
My hands and feet are bound
To the railroad tracks
And you know too much about that
I keep trying to fight with the ghosts from my past
How long will this last
Shit I'm afraid to ask

8 years later
My best friend started acting like I never really knew him to begin with
I told him he was selfish but
I didn't know the half of it
Because a dining room chair
That once was mine has been his
He's been the mentee of the people who failed me
I lost of piece of my mind
But all he did was dine
With the enemy

I thought I was over it
I thought we were done
You're an oncoming train that I could never get away from
My hands and feet are bound
To the railroad tracks
And you know too much about that
I keep trying to fight with the ghosts from my past
How long will this last
Shit I'm afraid to ask

Now I only trust one man
But if he knew this it'd kill him
So I listen to him talk
And we drive
Everywhere but there
He says "I know those roads well enough and they might be too rough"
And I've never felt safer
And I hope I seem familiar
Once was an open book
But it had pages missing
Lost out in the woods where you first kissed me
I don't know why I sing to you when you don't even listen
And there's something so sick
About the way you would sit so close
No
No it wasn't just you
I was told that's the teens and 20's
So I swallow every name and pretend
That it didn't hurt and
Tell myself I'm over it

I thought I was over it

I thought we were done
You're an oncoming train that I will never outrun
My hands and feet are bound
To the railroad tracks and you know too much about that
I keep trying to fight with the ghosts from my past
How long will this last
Shit I'm afraid
To ask



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Writer(s): Jenna Szczepanski
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