Sapere Aude

Every now and then you know those times
You just wanna stray away from your mind
Get your heart where it gets right again
To a place you can revive and live
To a state things don't hurt
Just imagine it

I've been searching night and day
For this alleged estate, I pray
That it's recognizable
Unlike your face
Where is my faith
I hope this hole has rope to pull myself up
But I fear that I am
Damned to live the rest of my
Ungrateful life just stuck in here
But then you hand me a handhold
Old me told me old man's hands
Have more pain than me
Why can't I see the bright side to life
Especially to mine
I'm finding as my mind arrives
To higher hindsight
Bright lights occupy
And I won't disagree to this brief reprieve
'Cause see

I fall short of what I expects
What I need for me to be loved
I know I need to learn
But that means admitting
I'm not enough
Why do I think peace is the peak
Of my existence, it's odd
The more I know, I grow,
But now I know too much, man
Sapere Aude

I've been trying to find a home
And I've had success
I'm not alone

Every now and then you know those times
You just wanna stray away from your mind
Get your heart where it gets right again
To a place you can revive and live
To a state things don't hurt
You can have it

I fall short of what I expects
What I need for me to be loved
I know I need to learn
But that means admitting
I'm not enough
Why do I think peace is the peak
Of my existence, it's odd
The more I know, I grow,
But now I know too much, man
Sapere Aude

I cut myself open
Showing everything inside
So that these others do not have to
They can just repeat these lines
I've been hurt, I don't know why
It's not my fault, but in my mind
Sometimes I think that I deserve it
Just because I live in pain
Does not mean that I'm a bad person
Ain't been worse but I've been worsening
I found the solution to my problem
Yet I find I still immerse
Inside what robs my train of thoughts
Before it reaches my brain's station
They say the key to completion starts with self-gratification

This house gives you peace, something I haven't felt since twenty-fifteen
Deep breaths don't give serenity
Sometimes you need to send your psyche
To shut up your heart
"You're not in charge"
Remind it who is king
Whatever I got to do to convince me
That I should not leave

I cut myself open
Showing everything inside
So that these others do not have to
They can just repeat these lines
I've been hurt, I don't know why
It's not my fault, but in my mind
Sometimes I think that I deserve it
Just because I live in pain
Does not mean that I'm a bad person
Ain't been worse but I've been worsening
I found the solution to my problem
Yet I find I still immerse
Inside what robs my train of thoughts
Before it reaches my brain's station
They say the key to completion starts with self-gratification

This house gives you peace, something I haven't felt since twenty-fifteen
Deep breaths don't give serenity
Sometimes you need to send your psyche
To shut up your heart
"You're not in charge"
Remind it who is king
Whatever I got to do to convince me
That I should not leave

I've been trying to find a home
And I've had success
I'm not alone