Always Nothing

Looks good
Feels real good
Telling everyone they never understood
There's a deep hole
Where your heart was
You taste the champagne
I only taste blood

How'd you know we all know about it
Take your pick and move on without it
Lift your head and try to hold tears back
Give me more and I'll cut you more slack

Every time
I try to feel
I feel like I'm nothing
In your eyes
I'd pull the plug to make you feel something
And it only hurts in good ways now
As you cut me from the inside out
If I think I find a faster way down
I'll tell the gemini to take a bow

I wanted to want it
But it's not my kind of thing
You could tell I started squirming
when you said it's gonna sting

And I've been hallowing the hollow
Dressing death up as a king
I'm always making out with martyrs
just to see what luck it brings
And if I loved you
Then I would love to
Follow every fucking order like I always do

Cuz it's so like you
Expecting me to
Keep indulging in a hemorrhage of this magnitude

Every time
I try to feel
I feel like I'm nothing
In your eyes
I'd pull the plug to make you feel something
And it only hurts in good ways now
As you cut me from the inside out
If I think I find a faster way down
I'll tell the gemini to take a bow

I leave my fate in strangers' hands
If they're really watching
Then they'll understand
Scrub my brain then scrub again
Thinking how many times can I face my end

Talk about a great gig
Living for the right dig
Willing to get real sick
Even just to taste it
Violently collapsing
Subtly relapsing
Opening a deep wound
Just so we can make it
I'm saying...

Duplicate the sharpest pain
And save that shit inside your brain
With vomit like a hurricane
Your mouth won't ever feel the same

Every time
I try to feel
I feel like I'm nothing
In your eyes
I'd pull the plug to make you feel something
And it only hurts in good ways now
As you cut me from the inside out
If I think I find a faster way down
I'll tell the gemini to take a bow