Cog

Cogs turning, spinning, burning
I don't want to be a cog
Cogs turning, never learning
I don't want to be your cog

I got so much to say, so much shit on my mind
I don't think that I could ever leave this past behind
I always feel stuck, the same mistakes made
I'm trapped in a cycle I can never seem to break
You think of yourself, whatever use I may have
And every way that you can stack your problems seems to add
Right onto my pain, my shoulders weighed with shame
Destroy everything new so I would stay the same
I go back to my old ways and you wanted that too
You wanted me to go back so I'd crawl back to you
Without another option I'm forced to go back again
And you stole my strength so I can't even pretend
My soul, I feel like I cannot breathe
It might not be your fault, but don't push this on me
You break me, you steal 'til you're full
But the truth is I don't fucking think you're beautiful

Cogs turning, spinning, burning
I don't want to be a cog
Cogs turning, never learning
I don't want to be your cog

You try to look inside, ask me to spell my words
You act like my feelings are something that you fucking deserve
You told me what to think, and what rules I should follow
How I should feel, yet you only ever left me hollow
You came back in my life, I tried to push you away
No matter what I do you always end up seeming to stay
I got over you so tell me why the fuck are you back
Manipulate my thoughts until it seems like you were attacked
With every time that I thought that I was stronger than that
With every verse that I wrote, with every line that I spat
And realizing over time that there isn't an end
That it's a waste of space and life with energy that I spent
Trying to reach a lie, realizing it's false
This hope will die again and then seems it's all but your fault
Every time I push, you only ever seem to pull
And the truth is I don't fucking think you're beautiful

Cogs turning, spinning, burning
I don't want to be a Cog
Cog turning, never learning
I don't want to be your Cog

And they act like they want to help you
They act like you're not smart enough to see it
They all decide what your use, what your purpose is
Like that isn't a conversation you should be a part of
They think they are in control
That you're just a cog spinning endlessly under their rule
But when you break down, the machine stops
Leaving you in control, and leaving them useless

Cogs turning, spinning, burning
I don't want to be a cog
Cogs turning, never learning
I don't want to be your cog