Imperfect

It hurts to say I'm alone
And I'm imperfect I know

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Grabbing my chest
Reaching for God
Praying for rest
Pressing replay
Hoping I'll check my phone and see there's an unopened text
Seen it before and I know the direction
Stressing, messing, headaches
Loss of connection, feelings lost, seeking reflection
Seasons doubting, all in my head
And these notes have emotion it's evident
But the past and the present are separate
Why does it have to be me on the edge again?
Fighting feelings and always repressing them
God I'm alone, and I need to vent
Can't see the answer, give me a hint
I know I want love and its not making sense
That this time it just came and it went
I know that I'm anxious
Racing around like the horse in the races
Back to the basics
Finding myself in the lowest of places
Been hard and I meant what I said to the core when I say it
I miss you, can't say it now
I love you, can't say that either
It's over, we said it now
And it's colder without you here
And I'm feeling more than I've felt in a matter of months
But out of luck that it's all coming out at the wrong time
It just shows that this love was different
And after the break, it cracked and shifted
A part of my heart just like a fault line

It hurts to say I'm alone
And I'm imperfect I know
I think I'm losing control
Won't feel the same anymore

God, I'm ready for this to all go
It's all moving painfully slow
And no one else really knows
The pain and loss that I hold
Gripped at my fingertips
Bleeding from putting my heart and my soul
Into something that's gone
My energy's low, I don't know a ton
But this here I know, I gotta keep moving forward or I know imma fold
Mama told me this a bump in the road
But it's not easy to let it all go
Cause the pictures remind me of all the reminders I set in my phone
Of picking up flowers for you
Writing letters about all the ways that we really don't know
What's next in our life, but now it really seems like I really don't
Have an answer
God knows and I gotta accept it
Red eyes, loss of perception
Timeline all disconnected
Feels like an intersection
Could go one way or the other
I know the way that is for me
But it's hard to get to alone
And right now, I can't seem to see
But I gotta trust that the blueprint has been laid down for me
The mistakes were written and purposefully so
A chance to grow and step up to be the person I really was meant to be

It hurts to say I'm alone
And I'm imperfect I know
I think I'm losing control
Won't feel the same anymore
It hurts to say I'm alone
And I'm imperfect I know
I think I'm losing control
Won't feel the same anymore



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Writer(s): Jackson Atteberry
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