An Appeal to Heaven

Sometimes I want to erase the world
But then I think that it might do me the favor
Just looking at it's behavior
Sometimes I want to embrace the world
But then I think about if it isn't a waste of time
Doesn't even feel right

Half of all the debris
Half a sense of chagrin
Don't let me open the door
Don't let me risk it again
On a hillside I died
To keep a piece of the well
Unless you wanted to keep
Me living in your sweet hell

Moving on to the next letdown
Getting further away from the gnashing teeth
As among, so beneath
Moving on and heading out
Lost inside the shadow of disappointment
Lost all sense of enjoyment

Half a league in the dark
The pressure squeezes my skull
In the black and the cold
Where all light becomes null
And how still it can be
When it's just you and the black
No more distractions or ties
To keep you going back

I drowning in lust
'Cause I don't know how to love
And I came here to die
'Cause I forgot how to live
And I came here to crawl
'Cause I forgot how to walk
And I guess I'll choke
Since I forgot how to breathe
And maybe then I'll scream
'Cause I forgot how to speak
And don't know how to say
The words that eat at my brain
I cut out my own tongue,
So I'll just write it instead
I'd do anything
To get it out of my head
And I came here to hate
'Cause I don't know to forgive
I came here to drown
I'm too weak to swim
And I came here to scorn
I don't want to accept
That this is all that I've got
This is everything left

I came to forget
I came to escape
I came to get out
I came to be loved