Losing Control, Pt. 2

It'll be hard for me to love again
Heartbroken it's so hard for me to trust again
Promised forever but I see that really nothing is
I was at peace with my life then I seen you coming in
I want love but it seems like I don't deserve it
I wanna crash out but I know that it wouldn't be worth it
Even still you not being here is painfully hurting
Think I might've reached my peak and now I'm slowly reverting, yeah

Mentally I'm nowhere near earth
Probably my time to go
Zoning out on the daily
I checked out a long time ago
Had problems before the money, but the problems increased
And since I got it money just hasn't been a problem for me
Life's about God, and my family making profits to me
Stressing bad I can't wait until I proudly can eat

Cause this my second time feeling like I'm losing control
Still put it in God hands no way I'm losing my soul

Giving up is not an option
I done came too far now to even think of stopping
Fans counting on the boy I don't have time for flopping
Had a solid year they wanna know how I'm gon top it

I'm finna show ya
Drop so many songs I'm for the culture
They be biting off the kid hard not to mistake em for vultures
I get tired of driving sometimes I'm in need of a chauffeur
Do 100 miles an hour and I ain't going no slower

Mean that mentally
Think I'm that reckless you gotta be kidding me
But seriously
Move at a fast pace and I mean that literally
Cause receiving all this hate is quickly creating a different me
Pretty soon a lot of people will no longer get to hear from me
It's sad to say but that's the truth
Not sad for me but bad for you
Switching that ain't nothing new
It's time for me to laugh at you

Only when I'm gone will you realize how much you gon miss me
Can't allow myself to hang with y'all so I'm keeping my distance

It'll be hard for me to love again
Heartbroken it's so hard for me to trust again
Promised forever but I see that really nothing is
I was at peace with my life then I seen you coming in
I want love but it seems like I don't deserve it
I wanna crash out but I know that it wouldn't be worth it
Even still you not being here is painfully hurting
Think I might've reached my peak and now I'm slowly reverting, yeah

So sick of staying true to these hoes
I'm truly too old
Ask you to stay you choosing to go
That truly was low
Cause I didn't deserve it
Swear it's cold the way you leaving me burning
And leaving me hurting
Really got me feeling worthless
Exploring through life alone got me feening for purpose
I swear I been searching and lurking
Your reasons for doing me dirty
But I found none
Can't even explain it girl you sound dumb
Thought you wouldn't change over money until I got some

It'll be hard for me to love again
Heartbroken it's so hard for me to trust again
Promised forever but I see that really nothing is
I was at peace with my life then I seen you coming in
I want love but it seems like I don't deserve it
I wanna crash out but I know that it wouldn't be worth it
Even still you not being here is painfully hurting
Think I might've reached my peak and now I'm slowly reverting, yeah
It'll be hard for me to love again
Heartbroken it's so hard for me to trust again
Promised forever but I see that really nothing is
I was at peace with my life then I seen you coming in
I want love but it seems like I don't deserve it
I wanna crash out but I know that it wouldn't be worth it
Even still you not being here is painfully hurting
Think I might've reached my peak and now I'm slowly reverting, yeah



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Writer(s): Marcell Jones
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