Miracle

I roll up my blunt and run away from everything, everything
Pour in my glass until I cannot feel anything, anything
It could be worse, could be much worse, I've been through hell
I looked the devil up in the eye and saw a story to tell

442 and two trains home
Overthinking 'till my brains gone
Can't even get up onto my feet
Pockets empty for another week

Over and over my heart's been broke
All of my life I been desperate and broke
Waiting for a miracle or two
Sometimes I think I should wait for you

'Cause I'm not motivated without you
You're more than a woman, won't count you
As just a body, girl you made me feel
Like I'm acceptable before the mill'

Like peace is something I can really feel
But now love seems like a myth
Life flows and blends with the mist
I got one shot, hope I don't miss

'Cause everything I need
Is so far away from me
I'm dying for a punch in my ticket
A punch in my ticket
'Cause everything I need
Is so far away from me
I'm dying for a punch in my ticket
A punch in my ticket

I roll up my blunt and run away from everything, everything
Pour in my glass until I cannot feel anything, anything
It could be worse, could be much worse, my mama's boyfriend's in a cell
He left us in the dirt it's safe to say his karma is jail (Damn)

I'm cold as December nights, I walked home in those
I used to want something real, but all I can find is h-
Deep under pressure, can't even feel the sun anymore
Feeling like I'm buried alive with my two feet still on the floor, damn

I'm feeling hopeless, no one to call
Can't put the burden on no one at all
I'm a grown man I can find my way
Until I make it out to the escapades
I need an escape, you can't feel my pain
Everywhere I go I'm half dead
Look in my eyes, no emotion left
Put the novocaine back in my veins

'Cause everything I need
Is so far away from me
I'm dying for a punch in my ticket
A punch in my ticket
'Cause everything I need
Is so far away from me
I'm dying for a punch in my ticket
A punch in my ticket

Be careful what you wish for, I was sick of waiting
Couldn't take the bulls-, we just getting faded
3 years ago, used to rap inside the basement
17 and dreaming 'bout being A-List

Now I'm 20 and I got a tumor, damn it
This so bizarre, I'ma get it examined
Needed a biopsy, it was spontaneous
They looked at me and said I'm a cancer patient by chance... damn

They turned my head and said "look"
I was so shook, thinking 'bout my life
Showed me an ultrasound, it ain't look right
My jaw went numb with a needle in my neck
All the b- I went through, is this what's next?
It can't be, I ain't get to see the world yet
I can't be under 21 and breathe my last breath

But it's something I learned to accept
If my time is sooner than I expect
I'll leave it all behind for you to digest
My mark on the people's what mattered to me, not all of girls that I could get
Or the money, or the career that I progress
Or any material that I possess, but I digress
What I realized was this

Nothing matters more than the love you got
When your life is over, that's all people got
When they ain't got you no more
Mama looking at your pictures, tears all on the floor

That's what I pictured, it cut me so deep
Diagnosis got delayed for a week
No sleep, but then came God
Final result, the tumor's benign
Miracle...

Everything I need
Is so far away from me
I'm dying for a punch in my ticket
A punch in my ticket
'Cause everything I need
Is so far away from me
I'm dying for a punch in my ticket
A punch in my-