Love Myself

First thing first this beat is fire
I cooked it up and brought it to the stu straight from off the oven rack
Put in love respect and loyalty remove you from my life
If what you put in doesn't match
My brains overload with trauma
I feel like my head explode if I couldn't put some in a rap
Knife on my waste I got a couple in my back
Knew then what I know now I'd never said I love you back no
Roses are red my hearts black
Like it was the night sky
How the fuck I show em love when they wasn't good to me
Truly at heart I'm just a nice guy
It piss em off that why they pushin me
I feel like the vibe is fake the way you smile at me crookedly
God said he make it up to me in more than what was took from me
I gave you my heart just half a heart you gave to me
Only a man who ain't know what he's worth wouldn't leave ugh
Tears had over run my eyes I could'nt see
A broken hearts symptoms similar to covid 19
Hands to my chest I felt like I couldn't breath

I think emotionally I'm traumatized
Traumas going through my head that keep me up at night
This neckless around my neck to keep my heart under ice
I wasn't brought into this world to live a loveless life
I think emotionally I'm traumatized
Traumas going through my head that keep me up at night
This neckless around my neck to keep my heart under ice
I wasn't brought into this world to live a loveless life

Yeah so I'll be sure to love myself
My hearts on overflow with love enough for everybody else
Ex girls ex friends and enemies
I wish'd em all the best then I threw the wish into the well
This feeling wanna kill me what the odds that I survive
Look too deep into my eyes you'd see I'm traumatized
You never loved me publicly always on the side
Don't waste my time with that
I can't take you back you decide to cheat on me
God said he's always with me I ain't scared to be lonely
You don't support your homie like some damn celeb
Who don't even know you exist man
I don't get that shit I don't think I ever will
Might start a fire in the booth I better chill
Dentist took my wisdom teeth I didn't want the pills
It saved my life I sober it's got me feeling the greatest
Had to cut you off I won't be manipulated
That shit was devastating finding out that love was fake it wasn't real
Don't wanna die I just wanna kill the pain
Take accountability nah you gaslight to make me feel insane

I think emotionally I'm traumatized
Traumas going through my head that keep me up at night
This neckless around my neck to keep my heart under ice
I wasn't brought into this world to live a loveless
I think emotionally I'm traumatized
Traumas going through my head that keep me up at night
This neckless around my neck to keep my heart under ice
I wasn't brought into this world to live a loveless life

Yeah so I'll be sure to love my self