A.L.Y.

You see the way I act like I don't need ya now it's oscar worth
Shit's not a performance
You put em all before me
I know that's not my worth
God told me I'm a king in his eyes
I'm one of a kind
To let go all the hurt
Yeah I'm trying to for sure
Before I found it in Christ my self worth it ate away
Thought we had something special till I watch it fade to gray
Never hid my love for you
Ain't care what anybody say

You hurt me in ways I couldn't hurt you
Self love and respect you ever wonder why I left
That's a lie you say I just deserted you
From the bottom of my heart girl I wish you the best
A.L.Y. I'll always love you
I'll always love you
A.L.Y. I'll alwa. fuck you
I hate you fuck you

Damn I hate ya like ya ruined love for me
How you trynna tell me I'm the one that's bogus
I told ya you was full of shit to ever say that you in love with me
I thought our love was true I thought us up a whole life
You threw it all away for what a couple one nights
I wish ya knew what it was like
Ripped my heart in half
An the jab I felt that went throughout my chest hit like a knife
Trauma going through my head still keep me up at night
I pray for peace but this piece could blow the trauma out my psych from left to right
Just trynna tell my story hopes to have healed in full once I got none left to write
Wanna say that I forgive ya
Wanna say fuck you too

You hurt me in ways I couldn't hurt you
Self love and respect you ever wonder why I left
That's a lie you say I just deserted you
From the bottom of my heart baby I wish you the best
A.L.Y. I'll always love you
I'll always love you
A.L.Y. I'll alwa. fuck you
I hate you fuck you

Burnt to ashes
Any pictures we had
In a box or on a wall
Wish I never loved at all
I'd respect ya if you'd said ya just lost feelings for me
But ya took advantage of me when you kept me as an option
Felt neglected often
I had to detox your love to me was toxic
In a state of shock I couldn't wrap my head around it
An I still can't talk about it cause my tears would cut me off
Facts tears hit the pen an pad first time I write this song
You know you did me wrong
No apology we still learn to move along
I wouldn't get a bitch a bag before I get one for my mom
I got used to it days I get reminded of my trauma ain't no switch to turn it off
If I reminisce it damn near pulled a switch above my palm
Tried to starve to death the week I didn't eat at all
One eight double o two seven three
I did it if you're too afraid to call
It was sober up or I'd od'd if I didn't withdrawal
There just isn't no amount of drugs that's could numb it all
Lock my heart away
Discard the key
I feel like I can't trust at all
I've loved and lost but the scars it left
Sometimes I wish I never loved at all
I wish I never loved at all
I wish I never loved at all
I wish I never loved at all
I wish I never loved at all