disenchantment

I feel like such a fucking disappointment at times
What am i doing with my life don't know at this time
I always wanted to be the best always sublime
But me holding me back from glowing and shine

In my own way i don't know how to rid of it
Self sabetour always make me feel like shit
Even confidence boost won't mean a bit
Feel like i disappoint family, myself and my cat

I don't know how to get rid of it
I always feel like a disenchantment
I always feel like a dead plant
Unwanted and neglected, and so scammed

I use this google doc as a diary
Write with my pen so fiery
I need to make me a new priority
And it needs to be timely

I don't know how to get rid of it
I always feel like a disenchantment
I always feel like a dead plant
Unwanted and neglected, and so scammed

I always want to make myself be the bitch
I always want to serve pussy and fish
No for real i just want to cross that bridge
To a better mindspace, to my own niche

Nish niche got a nephew no niece
I gotta spoil him with some new keys
Need to show him life is a breeze
As long as you love yourself, kapeesh

I need to be there
I need to be here
I'm not a waste of air
And somebody cares

I need to be there
I need to be here
I'm not a waste of air
And somebody cares

Now I know how to get rid of it
I used to feel like a disenchantment
I used to feel like a dead plant
Now I'm wanted and loved, yes ma'am