Her Shoes

If I put myself in your shoes
I probably wouldn't be able to walk a mile
That's why I would crawl
Through it all
Through all of my flaws and all of my wrongs
It's amazing how strong you are to have survived the rain that I put you in
The way you found peace in the middle of the hurricane
You must have forecaster in your blood
You must have earthquake in your hugs
Because I can feel them even when I can't see you
When I put myself in your shoes
I can't even stand
How can I call myself a man
When I can't even stick to the plan of loving you through my own pain
How can I ask for respect as I fail to do the same
Why was I so lame
Why is it even as I write these words
Alone on this living room couch
It's hard to be vulnerable in front of my damn self
Like nobody is even here but me and I'm still denying where I sent you
But as I put myself in your shoes
I see it was a hellish place
I should feel disgrace
I'm putting myself in your shoes and I can't even look myself in the face
It's something about not being shit
That makes you start growing up faster
When you finally start smelling it
I'm putting myself in your shoes
And these motherfuckers hurt
Because they're six sizes too small
But Imma wear them anyway
I will put myself through the pain
So I never forget how difficult your walk is
How hard it is to trust again
To love again
To make amends
To look at me as a true friend
To heal what has been broken
To unhear what you heard
To unseen what you saw
To rethink what you believe
To give a second chance after the first one
Felt like strike three
To wonder if I'll repeat like the others
To find peace where war has already started
Well baby, I feel that pain
I feel that pain and It's driving me insane
That's why I had to get out and walk
In your shoes in the middle of the lane
But this don't hurt like a car accident
This is like getting hit by a train of regret
I thought I knew exactly how you felt
But it turns out my imagination
Was six sizes too small
My confidence, ten times too big
All I had to do was first sit down
Shut the fuck up and fully accept what I did to hurt you
I didn't mean to hurt you but I did
I didn't mean to kill the vibe but
Now I'm dead in your head
That accident should have killed me
I should've thought before I acted
I should've taken more practice
Putting myself in your shoes
So I could fully fathom what you had
To spend all this time trying to unimagine
When I do the math on all my failed relationships
I see the common denominator is me, damn

And all I want to do is make it right
But what does that even look like

And all I want to do is make it right
But what does that even look like
I don't even know
But I'll at least start by putting myself
In your shoes
So that way you know you don't have to take this walk alone