Metro City Bus

I think about what life was like before this apathy
When we talked and laughed and laid under my childhood apple tree
Where my father tied a rope for me and my dirty tire swing
Where our frozen cold connection bloomed into a gentle spring
And if walls could talk they'd tell you of a story sad and blue
Of how I wish I could have loved you how you needed me to
But I can't express the bitterness of others you don't know
Yeah it sure ain't like the movies, I'm just a one man show

And all I have left are blurry pictures of you
Locked away inside the photo vault I shouldn't go through
If I showed them to your friends they'd ask if that was even you
Cuz your face has changed and I'm pretty sure you dyed your hair too
And I'm scared to be alone because I'll think about us
And I'm too scared to run into you on that metro city bus
Would I even say hello or would I look the other way
The answers I don't know but that's a problem for another day

I asked if I could give you back those things you gave to me
Like that Daniel Johnston t-shirt and the Taylor Swift CD
But you told me to go fuck myself in few too many words
But at least you spoke my name so what you said just couldn't hurt
And I haven't heard from you now in near six months and a day
And as time extends and my pinky bends I feel something's gotta break
This medication's wearing off, these remedies won't fix
And you've completely emptied out this beggar's bag of tricks

And all I have left are blurry pictures of you
Locked away inside the photo vault I shouldn't go through
If I showed them to your friends they'd ask if that was even you
Cuz your face has changed and I'm pretty sure you dyed your hair too
And I'm scared to be alone because I'll think about us
And I'm too scared to run into you on that metro city bus
Would I even say hello or would I look the other way
The answers I don't know but that's a problem for another day