no (hard) feelings

It started on the swings
A kaleidoscope of feelings
An intensity
Must have been a dream
I had to close my eyes
To meet you in my mind
You tried to compromise my self worth
For your pleasure

When happiness subsides
Adrenaline goes quiet
And all that's left is lust
Mistaken for love
Well there's always two sides
I wish you hadn't lied
And led me on for months
That was toxic to be honest

I see it clearly now

I got a feeling I'll be seeing you
In all the places that I don't want to
Can't cut the tension with your silver spoon
I learned my lesson and I know I said
I'd be your friend
Oh how could I forget
When you apologized again and again and again and again
Oh I mean it, there's no hard feelings now

You said we would stay friends
But act as if were enemies
I'm getting tired
Of your fucking bullshit
You never follow through
And what was I to you?
A distraction from your pain
An escape
What a mistake

I see it clearly now

I got a feeling I'll be seeing you
In all the places that I don't want to
Can't cut the tension with your silver spoon
I learned my lesson and I know I said
I'd be your friend
Oh how could I forget
When you apologized again and again and again and again
Oh I mean it, there's no hard feelings now

Now I know not to settle for
Boys who go ghost
Then write me pretty words
You were shallow
You were insecure
And now I've learned
I won't take less than I deserve

In another life I guess
I could've loved you if you let me