Changes

I've been going through the motions
Learning how to pretend that everything is perfect
And I've been sinking in an ocean
Drowning but I'm silent
Yet everyone thinks I'm afloat
I'm goin' through changes
But I swear I'm the same
Could ya show me some patience along the way
I'm goin' through changes
But I swear I'm the same
Could ya show me some mercy if I start to stray

I keep goin' through these phases, trapped in all these different mazes
Writin' my own book but I can't find my way through these pages
I keep steppin' on these stages, stayin' down bein' patient
Only way to cure the pain is by making friends with these dead faces
I swear I'm the same (same, same)
All of these demons but I take the blame
I don't need the fame (fame, fame)
I just need money to lessen the pain
This isn't a game (isn't a game)
Sometimes I feel like I'm locked in a cage but I'm not ashamed (no I'm not ashamed)
Imma keep pushin' and searchin' for ways to block out the pain
These voices keep screamin' and yellin' my name, they run through my brain yeah
Tellin' me to grab the rope
Tellin' me to give it up
But Imma keep searchin' for hope and maybe withdrawal for the cup
This liquor it runs down my throat but never seems to be enough

I'm goin through changes
But I swear I'm the same
Could ya show me some patience along the way
I'm goin through changes
But I swear I'm the same
Could ya show me some mercy if I start to stray

Ain't nobody perfect
Ain't nobody ready to give out a verdict
They know that I'm hurtin'
But they ain't gone help cause they think I'm a burden
Tryin' to surface
But I just keep sinkin', I'm feelin so worthless
Ain't found a purpose
No, I ain't found a reason
To try and keep fightin' with all of these demons, yellin' and screamin'
I'm just to quit to try and release em (I'm just to quit)
All these voices in my head, yeah
All these voices that I dread, yeah
All these voices wish me dead, yeah
Hard for me to get ahead, while I'm layin' in my bed
They keep lurkin' in my head (lurkin')
I've been feelin' like I'm dead (dead)
I can't sleep without the meds (can't)
Like a virus, they gon' spread (spread)
Till I'm hangin' by a thread (thread)
I'm just trynna keep my balance
Please don't push me off the edge, no
Please don't push me off the edge, no

I'm goin through changes
But I swear I'm the same
Could ya show me some patience along the way
I'm goin through changes
But I swear I'm the same
Could ya show me some mercy if I start to stray



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Writer(s): Dawson Ward
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