Drowning at the B-Sides

If you had asked me a year ago
How many soulmates that I had known
I would've just spewed cynicism
In romance and in animism
And now I'm sure I'd do the same
But I'd still want to say your name

If you had asked me in 2020
What I thought my hardest day would be
I would've spewed more cynicism
In romance and in defeatism
And now I'm sure I'd do the same
But I'd still want to name today

And when I look into your eyes
I don't think I can say goodbye
And when you say that I'll be fine
We both know that's just a lie

And I hate all your friends
Coz they'll all get to see you again
And they'll all get to see your smile
And they'll all know it's all worthwhile
And everyday they'll get to see those eyes
And they won't have to deal with this fucked goodbye

And they won't think of the next hug
In three weeks as the last one
So now where we stand where we always sat
It doesn't matter that you love me back
Because I could never see it in your eyes
Now I'm your B-side

I can see the better side of you
And I'm drowning in it till' it turns me blue
I thought we'd have all the time in the world
But now I'm drowning at every word
I can see the better side of you
And I'm drowning in it till' it turns me blue
I thought we'd have all the time in the world
But now I'm drowning at every word
I can see the better side of you
And I'm drowning in it till' it turns me blue
I thought we'd have all the time in the world
But now I'm drowning at every word
I can see the better side of you
And I'm drowning in it till' it turns me blue
I thought we'd have all the time in the world
But now I'm drowning at every word

At every word
I can see the better side of you