Vacant

Depression, anxiety
When it built up inside me
Finally, knew how to fight it outta me
But I'm an oddity
Never thought I'd lose someone to suicide
Til one day I heard my mama on the phone cry
My uncle took his own life
Seeing the tears in her eyes
Never gonna see her brother another day or no night
Dangerous feeling inside
Demons peeling your hide
Darkest thoughts that you can't walk off, deep and seep in your mind
And we left speechless
Why couldn't he reach us?
Looking for clues and pieces
Like what the fuck's reason?
The family heart be bleeding
No one wanted you leaving
Now you leaving us grieving
Feels like a dream until we see the casket six feet deep
In the earth not breathing
I'll never understand going that full length
You're full of pain, but that pain just continues to stay
To the people you left the very next day

Know your loved when feeling so mentally taken
And I know it's tough, but I know that you can make it
Please don't give up, just know that we're here for your saving
And I know it's rough, but call when you're mentally vacant

Silence is the killer, thinking that you can deal with
The feeling that left you bleeding, knowing you're feeling defeated
Help is what you should be seeking, No you ain't weak
I believe in you
You got the strength to overcome it, ain't no way you gonna plummet
There's always a reason, I said there's always a reason
Family, passion, love, fun, so much you be leaving
Behind even if you feel nothing at this current time
We lost so many others and we just don't need another
We grieving while you suffer, pain in all the directions
No perfect way to deflect it, but man, we gotta start somewhere
Fuck a funeral chair, breathing the saddest of airs
You may feel so unaware, but I swear living's the option
So just sit and stop it, what you're holding just, drop it
You feel alone, but you're not man
The pain you feel is temporary
I get it's scary, but the help you get will dig you out from really feeling buried

Know your loved when feeling so mentally taken
And I know it's tough, but I know that you can make it
Please don't give up, just know that we're here for your saving
And I know it's rough, but call when you're mentally vacant

You see a list of names, details of reasons they break
Photos lined up all smiling, you wouldn't think of them dying
I think the about the decisions, how to keep them from committing
Etika drowned in Manhattan, how the fuck does that happen?
Robin Williams left hanging, claiming his life in a bedroom
The substance abuses that leads a bunch to they death too
My uncle gone, shot himself from his own palms
Shit surprises everybody, listen if you feeling muddy
You got reasons to be living, give another day a chance
The effect you have on others is actually really grand
Please get that helping hand, one will truly understand
If I'm talking to you on this mic, well then it's time
To pierce that darkness with light, to beat that force with your might
We may not see your own signs, but you have nothing to hide
Thoughts are at an all time low
But I know, the last thing the world needs is to see you go

Know your loved when feeling so mentally taken
And I know it's tough, but I know that you can make it
Please don't give up, just know that we're here for your saving
And I know it's rough, but call when you're mentally vacant