Childhood Trauma

I'm standing face to face with my childhood trauma
So many nights I couldn't sleep, I couldn't talk to my momma
Cause she was hurting too I'm sick my pops was causing the drama
Troubled home, was my environment, and I was a product
Never had a lot of friends, always stayed in my lane
I used to hoop but they ain't know me, only see me in games
Trying to balance my emotions through the sunshine and rain
I hate to say but love is pain, know they one in the same

Ever since a kid, I had to get it out the mud
Family all around, but nobody show me love
Feeling isolated, and was treated like a scrub
Now a nigga up, and it's on counting dubs
Ever since a kid, I had to get it out the mud
Family all around, but nobody show me love
Feeling isolated, and was treated like a scrub
Now a nigga up, and it's on counting dubs

I'm Detroit made
Been knowing I was special since the 1st grade
Remember when these bitches broke my heart, I felt like hurt bae
Remember when they ran up in our crib, them was them Burt days
Somehow my momma still got me them gifts on all them birthdays

A trench baby, I grew up on the west right behind Rouge Park
Never was the toughest but they knew I had a huge heart
Always was a hooper, I'm on fire, got em seeing sparks
I rocked him out his shoes, I got him lost, I call him Lewis Clark

Man you niggas ain't fucking with me
I den ran up out of love, these bitches ain't trusting in me
I ain't gotta ask for hugs, these bitches gone come and get em
That's a awful lot of drugs, I use it just for the healing
It take me up to the ceiling
I'm writing and I'm revealing
Sometimes I be in my feelings
Sometimes I be in my feelings
Had to say it twice to emphasize
I know depression nothing nice
I worked on meditation cause I know depression come with life

Spent my 9th grade at Cass, met my family we locked in
Was late to 1st hour, I'm in the vestibule boxed in
That's when we started leaving going to hoop, it was some comp then
My people hiding something in the bushes, was a Glock 10
A Glock 9
That's when I saw how dangerous it get
I'm seeing chalk lines
Niggas letting off 6 second clips, but this is not vine
I copped mine, I'm not lying
Just know that if you fuck with my family
I guarantee you that I pop mine

Ever since a kid, I had to get it out the mud
Family all around, but nobody show me love
Feeling isolated, and was treated like a scrub
Now a nigga up, and it's on counting dubs
Ever since a kid, I had to get it out the mud
Family all around, but nobody show me love
Feeling isolated, and was treated like a scrub
Now a nigga up, and it's on counting dubs

Ever since a kid, I had to get it out the mud
Family all around, but nobody show me love
Feeling isolated, and was treated like a scrub
Now a nigga up, and it's on counting dubs
Ever since a kid, I had to get it out the mud
Family all around, but nobody show me love
Feeling isolated, and was treated like a scrub
Now a nigga up, and it's on counting dubs

I'm standing face to face with my childhood trauma
So many nights I couldn't sleep, I couldn't talk to my momma
Cause she was hurting too I'm sick my pops was causing the drama
Troubled home, was my environment, and I was a product
Never had a lot of friends, always stayed in my lane
I used to hoop but they ain't know me, only see me in games
Trying to balance my emotions through the sunshine and rain
I hate to say but love is pain, know they one in the same