Self Destruct / Can't Breathe (not a piano song)

Useless
I can't help but feel so useless
Tricked by thoughts i now can't suppress
Taking over all of my senses

Burning
Suddenly the whole world's burning
And the many things that we've been earning
Wither away it's concerning

And now

Every word
Cuts up my soul
All my mistakes
I can't let go
The whole world seems
So critical
And my last high
Feels long ago
As time proceeds
The worries stun
Each second forms
A loaded gun
And tension builds
It's just begun
So you want a show
I'll give you one

I warned you
But no one ever wants to believe me
I told you one day I would disappoint you
And you'd realize that i was never the person you thought i was
But instead just another attention-loving, hypocritical parasite
And yet, even after the cracks had so clearly started to form
Even after i had hurt everyone around me with my ignorant and impulsive behavior
You kept giving me more chances
More chances to disappoint you
More chances to screw things up even more
More chances to prove that i am unredeemable
Only now people are starting to understand
I can see the tolerance dropping around me
I can hear the whispers taunting and mocking me
I can tell that they are starting to get sick of me and all i do
And want to get rid of me
But unfortunately, i've grown attached, and i begin to spiral out of control
I start destroying everything in my path
And assuming all of my worst fears have come true
I no longer make any sense, and I cannot be reasoned with
It seems i can't ever change or learn from this
So once again i find myself counting down the time until i finally crack
And completely
Self destruct

I cannot feel
I cannot see
I cannot hear
I cannot breathe

This metal box
It wraps round me
It squeezes tight
Until i scream

I hurt myself
With every plea
I go insane
Because i'm weak

I've lost control
My worst thoughts leak
I harm those close
With all my greed

I scream at you
Because you're free
Because i've drowned
I cannot think

Now i've lost you
There is no me
Only the sins
I have set free

I cannot feel
I cannot see
I cannot hear
I cannot breathe

I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
I'm so so sorry
I'm really sorry oh
I'm really
I really am sorry I promise I don't
I am sorry
I'm so sorry
I'm sorry
I'm so so sorry
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
I promise I-I'm so sorry
I-I'm so so sorry I'm

I promise
This won't ever happen again

All I love
Starts to sway
Will it fade away
Will it fade away