Makeup

Maybe I should go first
Maybe it's a broke curse
Maybe it could get better
Maybe it could get worse

Maybe I could change put my mind in range
This is not the same turf
Maybe Imma trendsetter
Ride the wave while I surf

Ride the lane while I swerve
Sliding straight at my curb
Buy a chain at my store
Not the same as before
These are not the same words

I am not the same boy
I am not the same kid
I am not who that was
I am not who that is
I ain't quick to forgive

I been trynna get right
You miss me in your life
Hate me being uptight
Hate me being myself
Wish I stayed by your side
Guess I saw who I like

Don't be mad at my choice
Future lookin so bright
Only hearing my voice
I ain't bought no Lou V
Blow and maybe I might

What is my name when I wakeup
Showing myself all the fake love
Nowhere to hide on the outside
That's when I mentally change up
That's when my sympathy drained up
That's when the different me chained up
Hiding myself from the real world
Feel like I'm putting on makeup

What is my name when I wakeup
Showing myself all the fake love
Nowhere to hide on the outside
That's when I mentally change up
That's when my sympathy drained up
That's when the different me chained up
Hiding myself from the real world
Feel like I'm putting on makeup

All this time Feel like I ain't never been myself
All these lies That I let show when I really need help
All those tries Just to get out show 'em how I felt
How I felt
How I felt I'm Not myself

What is my name when I wakeup
Showing myself all the fake love
Nowhere to hide on the outside
That's when I mentally change up
That's when my sympathy drained up
That's when the different me chained up
Hiding myself from the real world
Feel like I'm putting on makeup

What is my name when I wakeup
Showing myself all the fake love
Nowhere to hide on the outside
That's when I mentally change up
That's when my sympathy drained up
That's when the different me chained up
Hiding myself from the real world
Feel like I'm putting on makeup

Hello You hear me talkin through the phone
Below I feel like I been so alone
Come on Can someone save me from my home
So long Since I heard any different tones
I need Somebody reaching through the void For me
Cuz I got stuck without a choice To leave
I'm struggling to find a voice to speak
Inside I'm really just a boy ya see
I really think I wanna go To sleep
Cuz everytime I think it's over with
The ones I love on start opposing me
And I ain't never been the one to fight back against anybody who was close to me
Cuz every single time I try it I take it too far
But ain't that who I'm 'sposed to be
Broke in pieces

Nobody really wanna know my name
They just want everything I ever gave
I don't know who I am when I'm awake
When I'm asleep don't think it ever change
You said you cared about me everyday
But you didn't care when you threw me away
Not what I meant when I wanted a break
Imma keep masking what I wanna say

What is my name when I wakeup
Showing myself all the fake love
Nowhere to hide on the outside
That's when I mentally change up
That's when my sympathy drained up
That's when the different me chained up
Hiding myself from the real world
Feel like I'm putting on makeup

What is my name when I wakeup
Showing myself all the fake love
Nowhere to hide on the outside
That's when I mentally change up
That's when my sympathy drained up
That's when the different me chained up
Hiding myself from the real world
Feel like I'm putting on makeup