love yourself

This hair carry weight
This skin carry weight
My soul, breath, nails shit it all carry weight
Oh shoot
Wonder when Imma bloom
I blow fumes
Dad speaks
Talking impending doom
Oh how gloom

Man my life flash before my eyes when I'm in my room
I'm picking through my flaws, in my past, what did I do
Was it getting in trouble shit all the norms I refused
Was it the cycle of Satan that almost led to my tomb
Was it getting out of touch with the fam, I'm out of tune
Was it the crime of my birth when I was pushed out the womb
Monologuing to myself 'fore I boom
I'm just a lil crazy best to accept before it come out exhumed
And shit I'm tripping
I'm feeling sickly
I told myself that that's the bitch me
Never let nobody see which is me
Even as a kid I knew how to be a man
You keep it all inside, no tears, don't steer from your plan
And when you sitting in that bathroom with a blade in your hand
At least you toughed through, now go ahead and cut your lifespan
You such a man
You really did it
But from the grave same society that made you do it
Call you an idiot
That's why I say its best to be yourself
Fuck what the higher-ups say I'd rather be expelled
You see I love myself and that took a long time
Cuz my whole life niggas tried to tell me I'm not mine
And please don't get it twisted nigga shit I'm still not fine
But shit I'm fine with that nigga as long as I'm dodging fines
Was like watching a king on his shrine
He threw down scraps of suffering
Used to eat it up and bloated like swine
How much time you think it took to get it out my nigga
If I can do it you can do it, please don't doubt my nigga
I'm in AZ and this shit it be a drought my nigga
A big ass desert, cracked the dirt, and grew a sprout my nigga
Running, running, running, running that's what I used to do
I was too scared, let my fears control how I would move
Got a grip and got back in my groove
I'm never stagnant if I was nigga, I would've been in my tomb because
Because shit

Even as I ran away everyday
I only learned that it didn't keep the demons at bay
And by these demons shit I mean me
My hands and my feet
I had a scalpel doing the worst kind of surgery on me
In that UPS truck I was so devoid of all glee
I lost my will to live, shit
I was hurting on me
But I won't let my issues hold a fucking curtain on me
And I won't let nobody boost they ego from using me
These niggas hating passing bodies like a bundle of fleas
They all mosquitoes, out my life man this is my energy
I was comfy with pain, I had the locks and the keys
And when I finally unlocked it oh man I really felt free
And that moment shouldn't just be a new feeling to me
That should be all the time, nigga shit I should just be
Everything in this life you gotta learn nigga
Been at my very best but still I yearn nigga
Everything in this life you gotta learn nigga
Been at my very best but still I yearn nigga
Its a learning process you gotta be strong and get better
Get yourself through that rainy weather
Its a learning process you gotta be strong and get better
Get yourself through that
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Its a learning process you gotta be strong and get better
Get yourself through that rainy weather
Its a learning process you gotta be strong and get better
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You can do it
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You can do it
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