HAVEN OF CARDS

I thought I was standing on the precipice
Of emerging at last from the dark
Chomping at the bit to celebrate
Cloistered in a haven made out of cards

I see now that I was blithe and callous
Never looked down 'cause I went through life unbalanced

The reckoning
Has come for me
My reckoning
For all to see
I will not languish for eternity
Writhing in Sisyphean agony
I feel the reckoning take hold of me

How long was I living in disguise as a
Con man selling lies to my heart
Before the meteors came falling down
Toppling my haven of cards

I see now that I was blithe and callous
Never looked down 'cause I went through life unbalanced

I always thought that I was destined for something more
But I'm stuck in reverse, retreating from the shore
I see the cards that built my haven strewn across the floor
Broken dreams line the walls of my mind's corridors

The reckoning
Has come for me
My reckoning, for all to see
It's beckoning
Solemnly
Let this reckoning now set me free

I am finally ready to submit to its incumbency
The reckoning arrives at once to bring me to my knees
I embrace the reckoning
I embrace the cleansing
I embrace the reckoning
I am through pretending

The reckoning
Has come for me
My reckoning, for all to see
It's beckoning
Solemnly
Let this reckoning now set me free

I was standing on the precipice
I was emerging from the dark
But all my pride and sloth and selfishness
Toppled my haven of cards