The Beginning to the End

Look Why
Do I feel alone all the time
When I got thirty people
Waging wars in my mind

Explanation to nowhere
Or why I am feeling this way
I will be fine I am ok
Are the only words
That I can find to say

When I am screaming inside
When I just want a sip
Can I please take a swig
Can I please have a glass
The right amount
To fall down on my ass

And forgot who I'm now
And who I was then
Floating down this road
Trying to play pretend

I've considered my options
You are not my friend
It's the beginning to the end

Had a hold of my soul
And you would not let go
It's the beginning to the end
I was wasting time
While you were taking mine
It's the beginning to the end

Now I've learned to move on
Still hard to carry on
It's the beginning to the end
Now I'm a lonesome soul
On a lonely road
It's the beginning to the end

Finally
Over one year sober
Why does it all feel
Like my life's still over
Why does it all feel
Like I can't go further

My brain won't snap
I'm just one step closer
To ending it all
If things don't get better
But you know what they say
Birds fly in any weather

And I'll stay strong
And look calm on the outside
Staring at me
Still Dead on the inside

Walking down this road
Looking like a man who's half dead
I've been alone in my head
Yeah
It's the beginning to the end

Had a hold of my soul
And you would not let go
It's the beginning to the end
I was wasting time
While you were taking mine
It's the beginning to the end

Now I've learned to move on
Still hard to carry on
It's the beginning to the end
Now I'm a lonesome soul
On a lonely road
It's the beginning