Controlled Chaos

Paul
Paulie
What
Are you ready

Waking up in a sweat
With my mind filled with dread
You shouldn't gas light me up
While you set flames to my head
I fill myself up with doubt
I swear, I cry and I shout
Looking for things so serene
Got to get out of this town
I douse it with gasoline
This fire never goes out
My journey's good and it's bad
But I'm so fucking proud

You say it's all in my head
I'm controlled chaos
I think I'm better off dead
I'm controlled chaos
I know I'm just in my way
I'm controlled chaos
Still searching for better days
I'm controlled chaos
Try to remember to breathe
I'm controlled chaos
Try to stop clinching your teeth
I'm controlled chaos
And it's my life should I save
I'm controlled chaos
Always one foot in the grave
I'm controlled chaos

I have spent hours alone
Trying to get off my throne
I don't have the strength to move
Or even pick up my phone
Everyone hopes I'm alright
I'm fine but screaming inside
These thoughts they poke and they pry
And make me want to die
Try to explain it to you
With this fear in my eyes
Hope I'm not freaking you out
Now you know what I'm about
Want to argue about this
You know I'll scream and shout
I have become a recluse
It's hard to leave the house

You say it's all in my head
I'm controlled chaos
I think I'm better off dead
I'm controlled chaos
I know I'm just in my way
I'm controlled chaos
Still searching for better days
I'm controlled chaos
Try to remember to breathe
I'm controlled chaos
Try to stop clinching your teeth
I'm controlled chaos
And it's my life should I save
I'm controlled chaos
Always one foot in the grave
I'm controlled chaos



Credits
Writer(s): Paul Denaga
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